Daily Archive for October 17th, 2009

Screw It!

Published on October 17, 2009 in Dissociative Identity Disorder and Soapbox. 1 Comment

To not have Joan around has truly fucked us up. I WILL be smoking again. I’ve fucked up royally and I’m not even going to attempt to stay smoke free. We need that girl around. I’ve totally fucked myself financially twice now because she hasn’t been around to do her normal stuff. The financial fuck up today is the very last straw. Screw this!!!! Totally fucking screw this. I have no idea how long it’s been since we quit because we didn’t write it down but I do know her absence has caused a major, major problem for us and it just gets worse and worse. The only way we know to keep her around is with a cigarette. We don’t know how else to do this. Addiction and craving isn’t an issue it’s not being able to get Joan out and keep her out long enough to handle major stuff like paying bills or taking us to the store. This is totally fucked up!!!!!

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