Depressed – Update

I slept the vast majority of the day away. The more I slept the more I wanted to sleep and the worse I felt.

I can tell you this much I don’t want to get up and I don’t want to do anything today but I will. My to-do list has been written and I’ll follow it. I won’t like it, but I’ll follow it.

Maureen

UPDATE:

I stayed up and ate a real dinner but I didn’t go outside. After a little bit I didn’t feel the need to cry but I did feel the need to do a little painting. This one wasn’t done with just my fingers like the other called Standing Swan. I figured while I had a bit of hand control I’d go ahead and paint. That lifted my spirits too.

After I got out of bed I moved around the house with no real direction, no plan of making my day a success. I just put my feet on the ground and was determined to stay out of bed.  I didn’t even attempt to figure out why I feel the way I do. I didn’t try to process it out or make sense of it. I figured to do so would take away from completing my little to do list. I do plenty of processing and inner analysis so it can’t hurt to put all the “why”  questions aside for a day or two. I guess I don’t really need to always know why I feel the way I feel. Sometimes it is what it is. I feel depressed. For now that’s just what it is but I do plan to discuss things with my therapist come Monday. For the next few days I’ll just do my thing here at home and stick to the short list above.

With a sigh of relief I can say by getting out of bed I made it through the day. Now you must excuse me as it’s nearly 4am and I should return to said bed and cuddle with my fur babies.

Joan of Arc