Letting Go of False Strength

1. Of the belief that I can come up with some sort of solution to make my problems go away in a pain free manner.

2. Of the belief that I’ll be just fine and won’t crash.
3. Of the idea that I have the ability to destroy the lives of others.
4. That it’s up to me to step in and say the right things and make everything better.
5. That I can keep going without fuel and support no what – false sense of strength. I can’t do this alone or on empty.
6. That I need to rescue my friends when they themselves refuse to act.
7. Of the idea that the pains of others must become my own.
8. That I’ve failed my family, my friends and humanity in general.
9. Of the idea that my identity is reflected in an object ie, the house is clean therefore I’m clean. OCD issues.
10. Of the idea that I’m expected to be the strong one so I should be.

Art therapy piece: Multi-media angel painted on sheet music. She’s holding her hands to release herself…from herself. There are so many circling crayon strokes on this piece which reflects my confused and exhausting path. This is also a layered piece in that it’s printed sheet music followed by layers of crayon followed by markers and food coloring.