The Reemergence of Blossom

She said she’d been thinking about me and wondered how I was doing. When I first saw her and she asked for my phone number I for a second didn’t think I could say no to her.  For a second I fell into my old pattern. Fortunately I caught myself.

I know for a fact that the reemergence of Blossom means taking several steps backwards.  It means beating my head against a brick wall. I just can’t do that. It’s been a very long and troubled year and a half since we broke up.  Boy have things changed since then.

She wanted to see me. I said no. I told her that I can appreciate that she’s made changes but that it’s just not a good thing for us to associate with one another.

I like the fact that I could tell her no and not feel like a horrible person for doing so. I like that I could tell her I’m not willing to try again.

At this point we live in the same city. I’m going to run in to her again, that’s a given but it doesn’t mean we have to keep in contact. Civility is one thing, a friendship or relationship is yet another.

Today is a good day. I feel good about using my voice to tell her no.

It’s a good day.

Joan of Arc

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