I heard so many one line commands about who I shouldn’t trust but you never told me when its okay to trust.
Never trust a man when he tells you he loves you. He just wants to sleep with you.
Never trust anyone who says “trust me.”
When is it okay to believe a man who says “I love you?” Exactly when is it okay to trust at all? Please tell me, how did you summate the trustworthiness of a complete gender into one single sentence?
My mind is blown that it took years before I knew to question these statements or before I realized how incomplete they are. Now that you’ve explained how to tell when a guy is lying can you please explain how to tell when he’s being truthful? Can you explain how to tell when he speaks in truth about his love for me? What should I look for, how will I know?
I have a feeling your statements were meant to be destructive and reflected your own mistrust of the world and in no way were intended to inform or protect me. I was never told there’s another side to this coin because your focus was too narrow and your life goals skewed. I mean, shoot, your life of sadism and hedonism was at full throttle. How could you have stopped in the middle of trying to destroy my sister, my brother and me just to tell us when it’s safe to trust and feel loved?
With facts and a broad focus I’m able to conclude that when your mouth opens my ability to trust and believe should take a hiatus. You are an untrustworthy, lying, vindictive, bug that needs to be squished with the boot of my mind. Soon you’ll be evicted from my head and be nothing but a smudge on the pavement. I’ll walk away from your rotting, worthless, filthy corpse knowing I’ve done everything humanly possible to build up my inner strength, sort out your lies and accept truth for what it is.
Sayōnara …….
Your youngest daughter,
Austin
The first piece is in expression of my longing to go home. I think by home I mean some place I feel I belong. The second art piece was drawn during therapy as we discussed the Hope Agenda as well as my mother’s early lessons in trust.
When Can I Trust That I Am Loved? – Thursday, March 11, 2010 – 2:05am EST
Test…this is a test of the comment section. Havent seen any comments show up the last few entries (not counting the one where comments were off). so just checking!
Testing, testing….
The first comment you left was on the art site on the entry Three Oceans, Three Pearls. The next one I have from you is on this blog on entry called The Reemergence of Blossom.
Right now the comments are on moderation so no comments will automatically show up. The sidebar shows the newest comments that have posted to the blog though. I’ll go look in the spam section and see if for some reason you have comments there. If not these are the only two recent comments that have come in.
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After reading your comment again it occurred to me you may be talking about comments in general, not just yours. I can sometimes be slow.
Sometimes people don’t leave comments on the blog, they send private email comments or send beautiful poetry. I jumped for joy when in the mail I received (sort of as a comment to my hope entry) a nice hand painted card. It even had sunflower seeds in it. I so loved that! Sometimes people don’t post their comments here but no worries the blog is working, it’s all good.
Faith
Your strength and determination never cease to amaze and inspire me, and I just want you to know that.
now these comments I see (others and my own). on the other entries nothing. oh well. thanks!