The writing on this piece drawn during my session today says, “She had self control when it came to pain not related to abuse. I am sympathetic to crying related to grief and loss but I’m not when it has to do with fear of abuse.
It is more than cruel to watch abuse and hear someone scream knowing full well you can’t do anything. I never even thought to at the time but after I wanted to kill the mother.”
These are notes from the session concerning how my sister broke her wrist and split open her thigh but didn’t panic and scream. She could keep it together when there was fear or pain that didn’t involve my mother but add my mother in the mix and she totally lost herself.