DREAM: Drowing Baby, Rescued Child

Dream One, April 11, 2010 @ 11am

I had to use the restroom at school so I walked down the hall to the girl’s restroom. Inside I saw a lady holding her baby’s face under the faucet. She was running cold water on the babies face. When I asked her what on earth she was doing she said the baby was okay and that he liked it. The baby fit into the sink and was small enough that it could lay on it’s back without twisting. She then flipped the baby over and let the water run on the back of his head. He spat and sputtered until his mother turned him over on his back for more water in the face. As she did the sink grew as large as a whirlpool big enough to fit four people. I climbed into the whirlpool as did the mother and a toddler who suddenly appeared.

The toddler took over care of the infant and let the mother wade to the side of the over sized sink. As she moved away I noticed her hair was missing in spots. She said she was recently diagnosed with cancer and that the infant was as well. She said she shouldn’t even touch the baby because her white count is too low.

As she began her woe is me speech the toddler cuddled the infant and my sister with her partner walked into the restroom. As the two walked in they told me they wanted to go get something to eat and did I want to come. I said yes but then they told me they were going to get Chinese food. I was pissed because I’m not a fan of Chinese so I began yelling at them with fury. YOU know I hate Chinese food, that’s all y’all eat. Chinese, Vietnamese, Thai. I DO NOT like Chinese food, I said, so why even bother to invite me along when that’s where you’re going? Can’t you go someplace where I’d actually want to eat?

I was pissed!!!!! I woke from there.

Notes: Running and overflowing water, over-sized sink, food issues. Two children are in need of care and support but all has been put on hold to discuss food and or the plight of the mother. Despite the legitimate concerns by the mother she took her fear and frustrations out on the children leaving them to care for themselves while she acted out. My sister is straight so I have no idea why she had a “partner” in the dream.

In waking hours a friend of mine forever wants to go get sushi or go to an Asian restaurant. The other day she smacked me with the suggestion of a Jamaican restaurant. Sometimes a nice, straight forward  home cooked  meal is appreciated but she tends to want to outsource her meals. For me there is no “love” in restaurant food. It may be served hot but for me it always goes down cold. I don’t want to eat out. I want something made for me not for anyone who comes along with the right amount of money.

I woke anxious, angry, grieved. I went back to bed about 2 hours later and had the following dream. I think I was reminded of having a pitcher of water thrown in my face as a child. The pitcher was kept in the fridge for when it was needed as punishment.

Dream Two, April 11, 2010 @ 7:30pm

My family was moving so we packed everything we owned in boxes so they could be stored in a house which we were not going to live in. There was a ton of food to be stored, fresh veggies mostly. As I wheeled a cart to the fridge in the storage house my little daughter jumped from a high shelf by the window and told me she knows what PG means because she had to do it when she lived in Africa. She told me her sisters and she were sold as prostitutes around age 6 and she had to do some PG things and some rated R things. She told me she hated it but that she had to do it. I hugged her and told her she’d never have to do that and that if anyone ever touched her like that again I’d kill them. I told her I’d kill anyone who ever tried to hurt her. I hugged her really tightly then let her skip off to play. As I made my way to the fridge with the veggies I noticed the huge, over-sized kitchen sink was draining with everything going down the drain. The suction was so strong that it began to pull hair combs from the counters down the drain. Some of the combs were black, some were purple. They all went down the regular size drain with no difficulties at all. I ran over to the sink where my sister was standing and put my hand in place the plug then screamed bloody murder because the water was scalding hot. When I pulled my hand back out some of the water popped me in the eye and burned me. I was furious at my sister for making the water so hot. I asked her if she’d ever heard of using part hot and part cold. As my hand began to burn I realized the sink was actually full of bleach. My skin was chemical burned which was of no concern to my sister who kept  slicing potatoes at the counter.

Notes: overflowing water, over-sized sink, child in need of care and support, I got hurt but was met with apathy by my own mother and received no reaction at all from my sister. Strangely enough it is that reaction I would have wished for in real life instead of panic yet I was hurt by it in the dream.

I woke in a sweat, angry, still very tired but I stayed up and went outside with the dog for a tad bit.

I’ve been asleep for most of this day but I have a feeling I’ll sleep again this evening without any difficulty….other than what my subconscious throws at me.