Daily Archive for August 30th, 2010

DREAM: Somewhere in the Forest

I had this dream three nights ago but I still have difficulty thinking about it. What comes to mind is how I tried to show people that something was wrong but no one listened. I tried to remove my sister and myself from danger but she was killed and I was trapped. Also of note is how I addressed my uncle and my sister by their proper names, something I hardly ever did. Everything else is pretty typical for my dreams. I woke with a sick feeling and a heavy feeling of loss as if my sister had actually died. Most of the time I’d rather I died in my dreams than my sister. She’s usually torn apart by something in some horribly, painful death with lots of screaming and in a way where there’s nothing at all I can do to stop it. I hate dreams like this.

—– Dream from August 28th, 2010 —–

The dream started out with our family having a cook out. The house was in the middle of a forest, it was huge on the outside but small on the inside. My uncle was outside with 7 of my cousins playing some sort of game but when I went to check on them later he had them paired up and taking milk shots off of their belly buttons. Each child was paired with another child and he had a little boy under him licking milk from his stomach. When I saw it I yelled to him to stop. I told him he was wrong. I called him by name so that the children knew I was talking to the uncle and not them.

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A new house?

Today a guy from some company came by to take photos of the house when Senior wasn’t home. He took photos of the front, the sides, the back and then left in his private vehicle. Just as he was leaving Senior pulled up and talked to him for a split second. When he came inside Senior informed me that the idea is to sell this house and buy a 5 bedroom down the street. He said that I’d have my own private area, private entrance AND my rent would be lower. He, his son, grandson and I would all share the home. He said his daughter is the one who thought it would be best to take me with them. I said, but she hates me. Senior said that she might think in the long run Senior needs my income. I told Senior that we have a symbiotic relationship – I need him, he needs me, its just how it is.

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A Child’s Wish

Post Secret had a postcard come in concerning a child’s wish to be rescued. The card said that for years she/he  wished her real family would take her away from the one she was with. It was all just a bad mistake, and she was going to be loved and cared for by her real family. She was going to be taken home.

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