I should be asleep but I keep putting it off. My mind keeps running in circles. Nearly in a panic I feel. This is crazy because I know I have clonapin I can take or I could take a hot shower, sip a cup of tea, a bunch of stuff but I DO NOT WANT TO SLEEP. I hate sleep. Yeah, I had a funny dream the other night but putting off sleep has more to do with letting it all go, closing my eyes and trusting the unknown. Sleep is a strange state to be in.
Daily Archive for October 30th, 2010
It’s a bit chilly outside, maybe even bordering cold but that’s not a complaint. This year I have something extra in my arsenal that may allow me to enjoy the season as it was meant to be enjoyed. Last winter I changed out all the bulbs in my house to daylight bulbs. The bulbs are designed to help people with Seasonal Affective Disorder. In addition to helping with that they’ve also helped keep my plants alive because they mimic natural sunlight. Unlike soft white bulbs they aren’t harsh and don’t give me a headache. It took a little while but I did finally change out each and every bulb to these rather helpful life savers. The bulbs alone made winter significantly easier. Seeing live, flourishing plants didn’t hurt either.
This winter I have “medication” that will help ease the pain of Lupus and Degenerative Joint Disease as well as a host of other physical problems that cause chronic pain. It is this aide that I hope will let me not just survive winter but maybe even enjoy it.
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