I wasn’t feeling all that calm or collected at the time of these particular drawings which were done with an ink pen or black gel pen.
When I first moved here I thought to myself, my goodness, I’ve gone from the pan into the fire. For a minute that might have been true but its far from true now. For just a moment it was rough.
At first I decided not to do any more end of life foster care for animals or feed newborns. I figured it might be okay to babysit from time to time but I’ll limit that as well. I briefly did foster care for a 15 year old male tabby. His photo is among the sketches. Seeing that boy roll around in catnip was priceless!!! Ever seen an old cat drop about 14.5 years in a few minutes? Yeah, that was pretty awesome.
Some of my issues are the same, which I expected. I expected anxiety and stuff like that but I never expected to end up at my going to my mother’s house. That blew me away.
Amy Pink (the mute twin sister of Amy Smiles) spoke for the first time ever.
I’ve worked on the ‘Joan issue’ as well as issues surrounding my sister’s abuse. There was a huge breakthrough on that.
We talked about abuse in cars and beds. We went over details instead of generalities. I’d rather have open-heart surgery with no anesthesia than do more of that work.
We talked about the innocent child and the angry one I used to be.
The following sketches are in expression of changes over the last few months in my new place.
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Good to see you posting again.
I thought this quote was brilliant: I was intrigued by her. I thought she was larger than life only to find out she was just another sadist in a dress.
I’m proud of you for all of your advances. Congrats on Amy Pink speaking! That’s wonderful.
I’m saddened by your frequency of switching and the loss you must be feeling, though. I am going through a difficult time with new memories, and lots of switching, too. The grief and body pain is so intense.
I wish you peace, and hoping all will settle.
Love,
Penney