Uprooting

My lease will be up in August which means I’ve started looking around a bit more for the right place to stay long term. I suppose the good thing is I have time. This move won’t be immediate and on an emergency basis. When I moved a bit ago I needed to do so quickly but that isn’t the case this time.  Since it won’t be an emergency move I’ll be able to fund it myself. These issues here are out of the ordinary but ones I’ll deal with for now with the understanding that this not a forever situation. I’m not trapped. I have options.

I hate to uproot but sometimes its necessary. I figure when I uproot there has to be a really good reason for it. I’m the type that needs to be in one spot and feel grounded and connected to my home. I’m super domestic, a home body, so the place I live has to be one where I can thrive.

I talk about thriving but sometimes I get in my own way by over thinking things. Do you know how mentally exhausting it is to have every step mapped out before you take it? I’m not one to leap with faith but I also don’t need to have everything figured out all the time. It’s exhausting. I’ve got time. That’s the thing I need to remember. I’ve got time.

I figure it’ll take a little longer for someone broke to find a clean, safe and affordable place but I know that place is out there. I don’t have to settle for less. To settle for something as important as housing is to cheat oneself. I will not settle for less nor will I jump the gun and dive in someplace head first. The best way for me to insure that things go as smoothly as possible is to talk to others and ask for their opinion, control my thinking and realize I don’t have to have this all figured out in one day. I’ve got time. I can wait, and some things I can simply let be.

fma

written Tuesday, April 17th, 2012- 1:25am EST