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This Year’s Independence Day

Published on February 2, 2012 in Art, Gratitude Journal and Letters Home. 0 Comments Tags: .

It’s that time again. I turn 20 years free this year.

For this Independence Day I’m going to go to an aquarium exhibit as well as check out a few sales at Hobby Lobby and Micheal’s. Then on Friday I’m going to an art opening by an artist who is taking part in the Fringe Festival here in town.

Each year I have the same breakfast I had when I left home. Since I left and went to a hotel I ate there and had a breakfast of waffles, peaches and whipped cream. Lunch was quiche and salmon. I don’t quite remember what I did for dinner. I don’t know why but I don’t remember, anyway though, the other two meals are part of my Independence Day tradition.

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Thank you for hearing me

Published on January 18, 2012 in Gratitude Journal, PTSD and Trust. 4 Comments Tags: .

The situation: I called to set up an appointment to get my internet installed but the installer complicated things to the point that I had to call the company. The main complaint was his aggression and unwillingness to complete the install. He wanted to make sure the line worked but didn’t want to hook my PC up to the line. He wanted me to sign the paper before the job was completed, before I had my new phone number and before I had the email address associated with my account. In addition to that he kept doing that man burp you hear in bars. He did it 5 or 6 times while he was here. Totally gross.

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Serenity

Published on October 11, 2011 in Gratitude Journal, Medical and Pets. 0 Comments

There’s a guy that belongs to the fish club here that I’ve been talking to a lot lately. It seems many of us in the group, including Fin (not his real name) have some sort of physical illness that prevents them from getting out a lot. He has a total of 75 tanks in his house all of which are stunning. I’m in awe when I see them. He’s also got little frogs and chameleons too. I think it would be funny for me to have a chameleon. It seems the perfect pet for a multiple. LOL Anyway, he’s got a beautiful home full of fish that I could spend hours looking at. Also, he doesn’t mind that I ask question after question. His eyes light up and he doesn’t mind that I’m nearly giddy when looking at his tanks. No one in the club knows I have DID and I plan to keep it that way but I’m sure they’ll find out rather quickly that I’m odd. I’ve discovered they’re odd too but in a lovable way.

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Standing Perfectly in the Sun

Published on August 8, 2011 in Gratitude Journal and Morton's Pride. 2 Comments Tags: .

I got a phone call from my Cowboi telling me she’d be at my house very shortly. I hate it when people drop by unannounced or give me short notice that they’re on their way but I’m used to it with her. I got up from my nap, threw some water on me, tossed on some clothes and met her at the door. We talked here for a little bit then she said, “I want you to take a ride with me. I have a surprise for you.” We got in the truck and drove for about 20 min, then she told me to close my eyes and keep them closed. We drove for another 5 min with my eyes covered. When she stopped the truck she led me, eyes still closed, on a 3 or 4 min walk. I thought to myself, what on earth is this girl doing? When we stopped it still wasn’t time for me to open my eyes. Finally she said, you can open them now. There I stood in the middle of 2 acres of sunflowers. I was speechless. She snapped a photo of my stunned reaction.

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A quiet, calm, Sunday evening

Published on July 18, 2011 in For the Record and Gratitude Journal. 1 Comment

A half dozen burned cigarettes stubbed in their tin, chubby fingers flipping pages right to left on top a white wash desk with a half broken lamp barely lighting itself. It’s Sunday, the day I take for just me, where the rest of the world is denied until I’m done catering to my inner self. This is the day the world must stand by until I’m good and ready to acknowledge its existence, or at least until Monday arrives.

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A side salad and a window seat

Published on July 11, 2011 in Gratitude Journal and Relationships. 0 Comments Tags: , .

I’m more than half way unpacked. While unpacking I haven’t stopped to cook a meal or anything, I’ve just eaten sandwiches and salads. The other night as I sat on the futon and picked out Chinese crunchy noodles, I was reminded of all those nostalgic times with an old girlfriend I used to traveled with. Sometimes we only traveled across town, but across town there’s a really wonderful hotel that serves free cocktails every Thursday evening. She and I checked in Wednesday, closed the curtains to shut the world out then we’d chat until all hours of the evening. We’d sing show tunes in the hot tub, dance in the room and sit down to a candle lit microwave meal and a side salad. Once Thursday evening hit it was Cosmopolitan time for me and several Tom Collins for her. After free booze it was back upstairs for more girl time. We had a blast doing that. For most of nine years she and I found a way to have mini vacations like this.  Expensive? Yes, but well worth the bonding time.  

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New Things

Published on July 11, 2011 in Gratitude Journal and Relationships. 1 Comment

It’s quiet here… uber quiet, which isn’t a complaint, just an observation. People come and go during the day but by about 8pm the place is deserted, not a soul in sight. It’s quiet here. I like that.

I’ve slept quite well. My bed is no longer on the floor so that helps quite a bit. It’s a lot more comfortable now. All the fish, plants, tanks and dolls made it without getting broken. There’s a smaller size terrarium that I can’t find but it’s entirely possible that it got put in a box someplace. Even if it’s back at Senior’s house it won’t matter. We somehow moved all those tanks, the fish, the frog and porcelain dolls without breaking them. My two person moving crew rocked!!! My little one Amy was literally in tears of relief and joy because the big tank made it. It was a huge, huge relief!!!!

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