These are the most recent and completed art therapy collages I did in my sketchbook. Just like the first art therapy sketchbook journal, I am offering Journal #2 in its entirety. This sketch journal also has a few original poems, lists and therapy notes. The twenty seven paintings and sketches are mostly in acrylic but some are oil with a few watercolor paintings here and there.
Archive for the 'Mental Health' Category
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Sometimes it hits me to rip the fuck out of my arms. I get this strong impulse to shred them.
I get a strong impulse to bang my head against the wall, to open up my stomach and release what ever is in there that’s torturing me. It’s release I want, not pain. Release.
My friend and I did our walk again today which was helpful for anxiety as well as general exercise. There was a small barbeque today where someone brought up the girl who killed herself. It is still raw around here over that. I don’t think people should be hush hush about it but for many of us who knew here the mere mention of her name is painful.
I wish I could run. Where? I may not be running physically but emotionally I’m running.
I hurt.
My head isn’t right. I can’t wait to see my therapist.
I feel so desperate.
I need to be hugged. I need to be held.
I have abandonment issues right now.
I feel desperate, nearly in a panic. I want to run. My brain needs to shut off.
Maybe I shouldn’t mention that I’ve had a good few days cause it seems after I do things go a bit down hill.
I wonder why I haven’t heard from a friend of mine.
I haven’t returned emails. I don’t know why. I can’t seem to sit down and do it.
I found out today that a purchase of mine went to Fife’s house. Great! I’m not going to think about it though. I need to let that go.
There was a small fire in the apartment complex today. No one was hurt. No real property damage. My apartment wasn’t affected.
It’s gorgeous outside today, just beautiful. In fact, it’s too beautiful to be evil – in a bad mood.
- It’s too beautiful to be sick today.
- Too beautiful to go to therapy
- To feel anger and let it settle over me, take over me
- It’s too beautiful to not find some way to grow today.
I’m going to take this wonderful weather and make use of it. I’m not going to watch it from my window or simply blog it. I’m going out in it. It’s too beautiful to watch it pass me by. I so love spring.
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In therapy Tuesday Dr. D and I again discussed the suicide of this friend. I told him I’ve come to the conclusion that she died of mental illness. She may have had wounds so profound that they resulted in her death. Its easier to take when I think of it that way.
I still don’t want to believe this. I still want someone to tell me this is a bad joke.
My energy is low but I’m doing better than this guy here. I want to stay in bed. I’m fighting to stay up, to eat and get out of the house. I just don’t want to do anything. I haven’t answered emails I need to answer or made calls that should have been made last week. I read the emails but I haven’t responded cause its like I have no words. I don’t know what to say.
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