I’ve got an issue, a response and a resolution.
I had a decision to make. I made the decision. I explained my thoughts to all 3 people. Two agreed, one didn’t.
My response to the third person was an internal one. Typical of me, my head started swarming with anger until finally I was like… No. Nope. Not today. I’m not doing this. Also typical of me is an exaggerated anger response. I go from 0 to 60 in no time flat. The other person has no idea because they can’t tell by the look on my face that I’m ready to get ugly. My own therapist says it’s difficult to tell when I’m raging that way because my body language doesn’t show it.
My resolve is to manage my emotional responses.
Ok so, I’m passed at how the 3rd person responded to the decision, but I’ve got to bring my emotions back down to normal. I need my head to be quieter. The first step to accomplish that is what I’m doing right now – journaling. The second is to give myself focus, not a distraction but focus. I have a lesson I need to study but I also have to feed myself. I have an easy meal planned. It’s ready to go in the convection oven. Once I start smelling pork chops, baked apples, greens, and cornbread I’m going to be one happy chick.
I finally made the mock lasagna. That stuff is great. I’ll have a late dinner as usual but it won’t take as long as it sounds because my portions are for one person. Also, I have a convection oven which speeds up the process.
It’s hard to cry, “I’m a starving artist” when I mention meals like that. Hey, I shop well. lol