Other than the fact that the character in the film killed someone, this is the closest visual I’ve seen of the disorder Dissociative Identity Disorder aka Multiple Personality Disorder. Several years ago I brought this in to my therapist to see. He felt also that it’s very, very close to the disorder.
Look at how each person behaves and ask yourself, how much of this has shown up on this blog? Everything from the little girl to the paranoia to the anger and fear. There’s embarrassment for the chaos and a strong anxious force that drives us. This shows my experience very well …. except for the fact that he’s in the hospital because he killed someone.
THIS WILL BE HARD TO WATCH
DON’T WATCH THE VIDEOS AFTER THIS ONE
I have no idea what videos will come on after this one. I don’t know if it’ll stick to my playlist or go off track and show something crazy. The above video is from my YouTube playlist Outstanding Voices. For the longest time this video was off the web but it’s back up. Watch it while you can.
I’ve tried to describe DID as being that guy from Quantum Leap who jumps into people’s lives and has to act like he knows what he’s doing. He’s got to acclimate himself to a new environment, new people and do so without giving a hint that he just got there. That’s the best way I can describe how it feels to have Dissociative Identity Disorder.
Of course not everyone will have alters that are exactly like this but it’s the closest I’ve ever seen. Criminal Minds had an episode once with a guy that had DID. They did it so well and so close to life that I didn’t pick up on it until they dropped that twist. The man had unexplained headaches, missed time, couldn’t explain his actions, on and on until finally they dropped that twist. I appreciate it when people show this disorder as it is. I assure you its not sensational. I also want you to know that we aren’t any more dangerous than the rest of society.
Some don’t have as many personalities as others. Some have more inside cooperation so that not everyone is talking at the same time. Some can control the disorder better because they’ve had more therapy. There’s no cookie cutter multiple out there. Some function in public or at home better than others. We aren’t all disabled. What I mean is, not every person with multiple personality disorder is in the same healing space. Some may be in a good enough space to hold a high anxiety job. Having DID doesn’t exclude you from being a good parent, sister, grandmother, friend. Also, it’s not as rare as you might think.
Most of us aren’t willing to tell others about the diagnosis but we will blog about it. The vast majority of my friends know there’s something not quite right about my behavior but they don’t know I have DID. Like many survivors, it’s somehow easier to write a blog than it is to tell our loved ones. Most of us aren’t willing to have ourselves taped and plastered up on YouTube while switching personalities. The vulnerability is too great and we don’t want to risk it.