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Multiple Personality Disorder PTSD The People Behind My Eyes Therapy Review

Therapy Review: Robert talks physical torture and emotional control

Roberts’ session contents: Physical torture, her need for humiliation, my need for self harm, an adult grooming young girls We picked up where we left off Friday when we discussed physical torture and how insane it is to step back and watch that situation. It’s got to be hard for anyone to picture a woman […]

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(CRSD) Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy Life is like a box of PTSD The People Behind My Eyes

sleep, jabs and jobs

I went to bed but I didn’t get to sleep until about 5 am. I sketched and painted the whole time. While having the most beautifully brewed cup of tea you’ve ever tasted, my friends proclaimed the painting a total success. They said its the single greatest painting in the history of paintings. I got […]

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(CRSD) Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy Chronic Pain The People Behind My Eyes

Low stimulation, high emotion, high pain level

Snow and her husband were here today but I wasn’t able to get up and greet them. They did what they came to do and left. I’ve been here in bed most of the day. I checked the news and got on FB for a minute. My body is screaming, even my scalp hurts. The […]

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Anxiety Major Depression Multiple Personality Disorder PTSD The People Behind My Eyes

Therapy Review: Robert Talks Physical Torture and Suicide

He talked about how he’s seen adults crumble from the pain of caning, so why did my mother think a child could come through it time and again, whole. He said he had to find a way to get through it so while he was being beaten he began to think of more pleasurable experiences […]

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I'm only human Major Depression PTSD The People Behind My Eyes

Suicide is Complex, to say the least – Chester Bennington

I found out about an hour ago that Chester Bennington from Linkin Park killed himself. I’m from the Linkin Park era. I’m from the era where we wrote their lyrics on our school notebooks and watched Chester scream while wearing plaid. He was a strange attraction, someone we could relate to. I’ve watched this band […]

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Emotional Response from Customer

Today I sold the painting “Wait for Me – Let there always be hope”. When the individual saw her painting she was moved because she’s going through a lot right now. This is the moment artists love, we eat it up. As artists we put our very lives on canvas and hang it out for […]

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(CRSD) Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy Chronic Pain Lupus The People Behind My Eyes

Finding Up. Amateur Herbalist.

This evening I’ll go to services at the Hall but at half point I’ll be taken home by another Lupie. She’s part of the group I work with. I would like to stay for the entire meeting but I know I’m not physically up to it. When I go to the Kingdom Hall I sometimes […]

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(CRSD) Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy Art Sketchbook diary

Art and Laying Around

I’ve rested a bit. I’ve done some reading and spent time with friends. I’ve managed a few sketches in my notebook and decided to snap a few shots 🙂 These are two page sketchbook drawing using watercolor and colored pencil. Both have a lot of color but the one just below in grayscale was created […]

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Abuse Anxiety Multiple Personality Disorder PTSD The People Behind My Eyes Therapy Review

Old GP Calls Twice Today – I’m not your dog

This is a whirlwind journal entry, a roller coaster journal entry with a bit of resolution at the end of the second part of it. The old GP’s office called twice today, once this morning and then directly after hanging up from my therapy session. The GP’s office wanted to remind me that I am […]

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Anxiety I'm only human Multiple Personality Disorder PTSD The People Behind My Eyes Therapy Review

I’m not your dog

This is a whirlwind journal entry, a roller coaster journal entry with a bit of resolution at the end of this entry. This first part starts out with me being angry enough to slip in speech just a little bit…… 5:37 pm I was ranting to a close friend about the medication I was to […]