I’ve slept quite a bit but I’m still alive and kicking. Any weather shift can cause a change in symptoms. I got off lightly with fatigue instead of higher pain levels.
The last few days have been cooler which has brought Mary Jane back to her old self. She’s back to chasing the pencil as I sketch. lol. She’s back to trying to sit inside my pencil box or in front of the screen so I can’t see it. The best thing is hearing her pur box on full speed.
I’ve yet to figure out what I want to accomplish next week. No goals have been set. I know I need to get back in my little studio, at the table with paint and paper. I’ve been feeling distant and hesitant to express myself verbally or in art. There’s a strong feeling of inadequacy and a lack of self trust that I can see a project through without messing it up. For this reason, I’ve put the piece Encaustic Rise to the side.
Issues with self confidence pop up from time to time. I won’t attempt to pin it to a specific event, instead, I will focus on affirmations and creative resistance. I need to squash the harsh and crushing fear that I can’t paint with any measure of success …. I believe I just came up with goals for next week.