This morning’s nightmares are the straw that could break the camels back as I struggle with the emotional side of health and pain levels. In order to keep walking the line I need to take a moment to breathe.
I feel a bit angry. I woke up angry from dreams and memories that disgust me. There are the sounds of abuse that haunt me that will be drowned out by my choice of music and honestly a few tears. It feels important to take a moment, pause, let myself cry and then go forward.
During this breather I’m not answering the phone or texting but there will be a lot of emergency self soothing. I’m planning grilled cheese sandwiches and soup. I’m going to snuggle with my electric blanket that smells of lavender.
Today it’s me, Super Clyde, my sketchbook and a big pot of tea. In a beautiful, hot, lavender and rose bath, I’m going to wash away every bit of last night’s dreams and make sure I have enough inner strength to be productive.