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It’s Faith, with smiles

Hello

I’m writing to you 12 days long in the ICU in an Indianapolis hospital. As you know I’ve had a pulmonary embolism, not my first. My body is full of blood clots and I’m not doing well. If I survive the blood clots I am at risk of losing toes. I’ve seen them, black, full of blisters. There are blisters up to my ankles that are about 4 inches tall and full of fluid. Breathing is difficult, energy ends quickly. I’ve got hematoma on my stomach and have gained 70 lbs in water weight. The kidneys aren’t good.

I need to tell you that I’ve got a very long, long fight ahead. This is the step of Lupus that is scary. I get better or I quickly go down hill. I need to tell you that Sundrip will close its blogging doors come Monday, indefinitely. This will give people time to see the closed letter on the site.

I thought I would need to completely close my Etsy shop but I had a local volunteer who can revamp and take over for a while.

I have enjoyed my time online, almost 20 years! I am thrilled to have gotten to know so many artists and writers. Thank you for your work and words. Please, live free. Create well!

You can at times find updates on FB by logging in and searching for Faith Austin, or send me your FB link through SundripJournals@gmail.com. I can still be contacted in these ways. On FB you’ll see photos of Sir Clyde romping about as well as sarcastic updates from me. https://m.facebook.com/sundrip

Thank you for being part of my growth and life for the last 19 years.
Smiles to you and yours,
Faith ❤

9 replies on “It’s Faith, with smiles”

Hi good to see your name ❤

Where is Paula? I hope she comes by

HI iCarly!!

My friend of 20+ years has been reading. Hello and big love to my other half in life. I miss you like flowers miss the sun, Grace. Love you!

Doing step 2, after 15 total days in ICU, today im going to a regular room on the hospital floor. Kidney functions improved but blood clots and other issues are still pressing. Bone marrow is working over time but it is working. I’ve lost 15 lbs in water in 2 nights, kidney functions going up. Can’t feel my legs except for pain.

Blood clots still high. Platelets 66 thousand. Hemaglobin 7.8, liver at 1.3. 4 inch boils on ankles and toes, can’t feel my legs. HOWEVER, my numbers are improving daily. Pain meds appropriate. No more internal bleeding. Working on pulmonary Embolism. I have a room for several months that specializes in my medical needs AND psychiatric needs. My DID and mental health are being watched and sensitive to on this special medication ward, of which there are 3 in the country! I am a fortunate girl, and grateful.

Bc of water restrictions, I’m getting about 750 ccs of water a day w good food. I have to let the water come off me thru kidney functions. This will remove adema and water on my heart and such.

I’d be lying if I said I’m not scared of losing my feet. I’d be lying if I said I’m not scared. I cry a lot, loudly. I’m angry, in pain! I have the private space to cry and scream out if needed. My room up from ICU is mine for several months. I can relax and get better. I pray I will.

I’ll note take and update in comments as able.
Faith

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