I was able to go in to see Dr D today. It was good to see him. It feels like forever when its only been a few weeks. I talk to him every Monday though. Anyway, the kids stayed out the entire time. Between Michelle and Ariel (6) there was no time given to anyone else. He does fine talking to them, but it wears me out. I’ve been fighting a headache after the whole thing, which I hear is common.
Michelle went over some art created while trying to deal with her anxiety. She talked about how she is being helped by lavender essential oils. Since we don’t leave home often, it never occurred to us that we might need it while out. I’ll make sure to have some on a scarf so that it is right there for us to use.
I didn’t realize how close of a friendship Robert and the little ones have. It’s possible for them to talk back and forth and hear each other clearly whereas I usually have to listen really, really hard to hear them or rely on their letters and notes to me. I can’t communicate with Robert as easily as Michelle can. I was shocked by how clear their communication was today.
Although subject matter wasn’t heavy, switching to a child personality is exhausting emotionally and physically. Since my nurse was the one who took me to therapy and she doesn’t know I have DID, I had to immediately come forward and ride home with zero time to transition from therapy head to normal head.
Nope, the nurses and aids don’t know about the multiple personality disorder. I usually don’t tell people about it, unless of course they’re total strangers on the internet. Most of my friends don’t know and don’t need to know. Only about 5, my closest inner circle, know.
When nurses are around I, Jordan, stay out. How, I don’t know, but I do. I, and everyone inside, will answer to the name Faith. At home alone people come and go as they please. The kids know their boundaries and don’t try to cook or make tea. No one leaves the house on their own. The kids are good about knowing house rules so it’s ok for them to come out when we’re alone. The older teens look after each other, too. We’re a good group.
As far as art goes, I’m working on 5 art projects that will be completed soon. I’m working on one small doll and one doll bag holder. My second home nurse, the one that comes on Fridays, says she may take the doll bag holder for her mom. I’ll still post photos though.
Last but not least, there’s been a bit of talk inside about taking a break from Facebook. I don’t know for how long but I’m throwing around the idea. Facebook has its place in small quantities. I’m thinking of a lot less after a break.