The nurse visited again to check my lungs which have shown improvement. She wants me to continue the excersizes to strengthen them.
Of course there was an incident with the foot. I was soaking them but didn’t realize the water was too hot and burned myself. Oh my gosh! Oh the issues one has when they can’t feel part of the body. I’m new at this whole thing but I’ll get the hang of it.
During the visit the nurse paid me a wonderful complement. She said she’s normally an anxious person but when she comes here she feels very relaxed and can feel stress fall off her. She said the environment is welcoming and that I have a very welcoming spirit. Without knowing, her complement helped to heal over a few weeks of feeling like a bad person for having negative experiences with the nurse’s aides (CNAs).
Last Monday’s session with Dr D concerning the CNAs was worse than the appointment the Monday before that. It was so bad that I cursed him out. I can’t believe that happened, but it did. It did nothing for my argument that I’ve not contributed to the drama in this house caused solely by some of the the nurse’s aides. I could not get him to let go of the ides that it takes two for conflict. Well then conflict isn’t the right word, “drama” is!
So the session ended badly then without knowing it, the nurse kind of gave me a complement that reminded me of what others have said. I have a welcoming home and generally a welcoming spirit. However, I can be triggered and pushed too far…. as Dr D found out.
We now have a permanent CNA that seems like she will work out. We’re going to miss the last one who didn’t get to stay bc she didn’t have car insurance to transport us to the doctor and store. This one has everything in order and seems nice. So far she’s not treated me like her therapist. She shows up on time and works very well. She’s a tad ditzy but hey, ya know, it happens. I do like her.
When I interviewed the new nurse’s aide I asked about depression and suicidal ideation. She denied both so she passed that test. In the last month I’ve dealt with 3 suicidal individuals, so yeah, I flat out asked her mental health status.
I have therapy again Monday afternoon. We’ll see how it goes.