I’ve been so sick that I’ve not been eating much. I’ve wasted a lot of food because I was in too much pain and didn’t want eat, and it spoiled. So I made a decision, take the wasted grocery money and buy CBD oil again. I hadn’t been able to afford it at $50 for 1000 mg. Anything less than that is a waste of my time, it isn’t strong enough. So I did it today, dipped into my $200 a month grocery budget and got the oil that makes a big enough difference that I can stand to even live!
It’s been insane trying to get pain relief from the doctor because I have to keep hearing about the opioid crisis! I told the doctor it’s not my crisis and I’m in pain. I’m in pain. Legitimate, well documented pain. Doesn’t matter. I’m not going to get assistance with this other than CBD oil. I mean, they want to inject me with some crap which doesn’t work but they won’t give the real help.
I wrote a bit back about how expensive chronic illness is. Today I made one of those decisions that we chronically ill make. Groceries or medicine. It should never come down to this. I know I’m not alone in making such drastic decisions.
I ate two meals today. Two, because the pain level was low enough to allow an appetite.