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Perimenopause and clotting. Blood thinner realities.

Content: Very personal entry. Perhaps not for the squeamish. Talk of blood and blood clots as well as being on a blood thinner during the cycle. I’m struggling physically. I thought I was going to the hospital last night. I didn’t go because I thought to myself, I just can’t do the battery of tests […]

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Tiny Art. Safe Art.

Sometimes I paint on a tiny little canvas because it feels less overwhelming and very doable. Larger canvas is hard to manage so I don’t mess with that at all but even at times an 8 x 10 piece of paper is daunting, so I pull out a small little canvas and let my mind […]

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Therapy Review: Fix What I Didn’t Break

My heart is heavy. I talked to Dr. D about the nurses aides not showing up again. They weren’t here last Monday when I talked to him and they aren’t here today and more than likely won’t be here tomorrow. Four or five people have told me that I’m not the problem with why people […]

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Gratitude: They Reached Out

I couldn’t sleep last night and was on my phone playing a game for the millionth time when I got a curious email. I investigated and was left with mounting questions. What is this? Who is this, and what does all this mean? I quickly used the email address to inquire. I mean to tell […]

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CNA Chronicles: Moving Forward

I stayed with this company for a year and a half but I should have left about 4 to 6 months ago. I really had no intention of leaving until I got a call about their inability to staff me and other clients on a regular basis. It appears there’s a lot going on, much […]

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A little lonely during self distancing

I’ve been self isolating since March. It’s getting hard to keep this up since I can’t even get a regular aide out here. I sat here for 2 days with no nurse’s aide bc the company has few workers bc of the COVID-19 situation. School programs are closed. Child care is scarce and so are […]

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Shoes

I feel as if I’ve regained what was lost. I finally have shoes I can wear other than the Converse. I obsessed over this for two years until finally I got my wish. I say obsessed but it was begging in prayer that I please find a pair of shoes to wear with my skirts […]

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Menopausal Symptoms : Cravings and Sleep

I felt guilt and shame before I was armed with knowledge concerning menopausal cravings for sugar and estrogen related weight gain. I thought I had some sort of eating disorder. I thought I somehow ate myself to this size, but how? I mean, yes, I was putting away a lot of sweet foods but not […]

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Mariah the Flower Girl Handmade Bag Holder Doll

Mariah is approximately 24 inches long in her sweat plaid, red dress and white ruffle bib accented with a red flower. In her textured yarn hair she wears one white flower. Mariah’s golden brown skin was created with acrylic paint on cotton fabric. Her cheeks are rosy red and her eyes wide and beautiful. If […]