Stress and anxiety have taken over the last two weeks. I stopped eating and took in fewer fluids than normal. I was exhausted. I could hardly breathe but my oxygen levels were very good so that made no sense. My chest was tight. I was faint, weak and had low blood pressure. They thought I […]
Month: October 2020
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Negative
My coronavirus test came back negative. I’m relieved. I’ll have to take a second one just for the upcoming surgery but that is routine only.
I’ll be getting tested for the first time ever tomorrow. I’m nervous but I’m also very, very exhausted. I can’t breathe very well. My lungs are burning. I can’t wheel myself about. My words have been slurred. I’m hungry but I’m too dag on tired to eat. My blood pressure has been so low that it’s […]
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Guilt. Shame. Fear.
Content: A very emotional writing. Trauma, current as well as PTSD. Today during my therapy session Dr. D and I discussed something traumatic that took place August 6th of this year. We’ve talked about it a lot and have processed how I feel as well as how others inside feel. However, this conversation took place […]
The pandemic has changed me. The long isolation time has made me clingy and more emotionally dependent on my caregivers. Today I wasn’t going to have a caregiver but my CNA came anyway, despite having a tooth pulled. I couldn’t believe she came. She said she wanted to make sure I had something to eat. […]
I went to see the General Practioner today. I thought it would be a long appointment but it wasn’t. I was happy about that. When I saw him, I got a lot of reassurance that the surgery will be just fine and that I’ll not have any bleeding issues as a result of the surgery. […]
I found out today that my surgery is Friday November 13th. I thought it was going to be sooner but nope. November 13th will be here before I know it! Before then I have pre-op appointments, including a COVID 19 test to be taken. The surgery is a uterine ablation. It’s short, sweet and is […]
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Watching TV
Wow. I actually have a TV now. It’s been 15 years. I can’t believe there’s a little flat screen here. It’s so darn cute! I just love it. My CNA went with me to buy the TV because I had no idea what to get. I needed a Wi-Fi TV of a certain brand, but […]