I told Dr D that I struggle to keep from resenting people who won’t keep good COVID-19 practices. I’ve been isolating for so long that it’s starting to wear on me. Seeing people go without a mask and go about like nothing is wrong, make it harder on the rest of us who are trying to simply survive this mess.
I told Dr D that I have not had a hug since March bc of the isolation. This is common for those who have no family and are single. The pandemic keeps us isolated because we want to ultimately survive it!
I’m sad. Human contact is necessary but nowhere in sight. I know this pandemic will eventually end. I also know it’ll take with it things like peace of mind and a sense of security.
Perhaps I need something to look forward to post – pandemic? Maybe I could plan a nice outing with Snow and Leroy (good friends). I can’t wait to hug them again and see all my friends in person again.
We talked about my lack of appetite and subsequent dehydration. I’m drinking 1 to 1.5 bottles of Gatorade a day to give myself some electrolytes. I’m drinking up to 20oz of it a day and maybe a pot of tea. I eat a small meal every other day. I have no appetite! I’ve got food. I just don’t want to eat it.
Sadly, 5 of my friends have currently got covid-19. One man I’ve known for 30 some years is in the hospital. A family that used to bring water and sodas here, are now positive for the virus. It’s scary stuff.
I have to weigh the risks of allergies to ingredients in both covid-19 vaccines. I’m waiting for my Hematologist to give added advice. Then I have to decide (with the help of medical advice) if the risk of the vaccine is worth it for me. If there is no risk to my blood system then I want to take it. As I said before, I want to wait a little bit to see further reactions and safety, but when it comes right down to it, I’d like to take the shot.
The losses in this pandemic are without measure. Too many lives gone. Too many people out of work. The loss of homes and the loss of human contact. This hurts! This whole pandemic hurts which makes me more willing to get the shot and see this madness come to an end faster.