I keep sighing. My heart is heavy but I keep trying to lift it up. The fatigue is insane. I’m learning so much about how OCD affects my life and how it affected my mother and sister. I don’t know why I keep thinking about my father. I remember his…
Year: 2024
Life Today
My hospital bed allows me to sleep well. I can lift the head and feet which helps me rest. Joe turned 15 on the first. Come April my CNA will have been here for a full year. She treats me well. I have a CNA on Saturday too. I like…
Relentless Grief – A History of Madness
Content – Physical sbuse with some details. Sexual abuse. No details. I suddenly put 2 significant memories with the memory of the abuse of K. What does it all mean now? My mother used to giggle as she told us the story of our pet dog trying to bite her…
Relentless Grief
CONTENT – Suicide. Abuse with few specifics. High emotion and anger. Not a light entry. I stayed in bed three days with the lights out. I fed the animals and went back to bed. The world felt too big and too dark. Now I’m in the weeping side of grief….
What Keeps Me Awake – Death and Dying
I have more trust that tomorrow will come than I did six years ago, still I live as if I’m breaths away from dying. I feel overwhelmed with the idea of dying which makes me wonder what will happen to all my plants I’ve worked so hard to nurture? Who…
Terrariums. Small Worlds.
I added moss to small, up cycled glass containers to make small worlds. This one has been up significantly longer than the globe. I love how the moss keeps reaching up. I also adore the child figurine. In the background of her terrarium you might be able to see vertical…
White Balloon Series pieces 2 and 3
As you can see, this artwork is painted directly on my clipboard. I’d been using the clipboard as a pallet. One thing led to another and I’d upcycled clip boards into part two and three of the White Balloon Series. Both are 8 x 12 inches. These fully functioning art…
Young Child with White Balloon
“Young Child with White Balloon” is an acrylic, wax color and ink original art piece with strong contrasting colors and swirls. She is first of 3 in the “White Balloon” Series. Mod Podge gives texture to the the flowers and the white lace at the bottom of her purple and…
Sunflowers and Endurance
“At the end of the day we can endure much more than we think we can” – Freda Kahlo The art piece deals with loss and grief. The largest figure holds tombstones in her hair, and her tears roll down into a heart. Those are some of the details in…
Divided
Content – Dissociative Identity Disorder, Uncontrolled weight gain, CNA in public. Dr. D hasn’t changed my diagnosis. He still recognizes the disorder. He wanted to know if I believe that ‘they’ are all me and not actually separate. I said, I know it’s impossible to have more than one person…