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Grief: Didn’t you know this would break us? 1

I didn’t know that grief would be accompanied by desperation to fill empty spaces. I used to require silence. It helped keep me calm so as not to be overwhelmed by stimuli. I now need to hear some type of program, film, theater, something. I need background noise to break the silence. Now, in silence, […]

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Grief: Didn’t you know this would break us? 2

Content: suicide, anger, autopsy discussion, grief The world moves forward but I feel stuck. I can’t call my aunts or my sister or cousins to share the grief, to encourage or be encouraged. I often feel alone with this. I feel broken. I’ve vomited out my heart. I no longer have one. I tread waters […]

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Do Not Betray Your Sister

There is no update on the eviction threat or my sister. There’s a temporary resolution to lack of transportation to see my therapist. As always, I think of my sister every single day, just not every single second of every day. I realize I focus on my brother’s death more than my mother’s. It reminds […]

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Sister. Watch You Glow.

I hugged the lady very tight. She knows my sister. She gave me an update. My sister has locked herself in the apartment and there is still no movement, no contact, nothing has changed. They do know she was last seen in there. No phone activity, no FB activity. I hand wrote a letter to […]

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Eye to Eye – Self Image. Friends

As I finished an image for My Face My Art a cruel voice in my head reminded me that I’m worthless. My gut felt heavy. I wanted to curl in the fetal position and face the wall with my back to everything; anything that might be damaged by my existence. If this feeling could be weighed, […]

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I’m not fine

i feel so broken, exhausted, shredded. i need a mental vacation, somewhere out of my body and its inferno. that thought plagues me, i have to escape this. they say when a person says they want to commit suicide that it’s a cry for help, that they don’t really want to die. that’s true. i […]

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Responding with Care

A short hospital stay was needed. I’m home recovering but I’m not to go anywhere. I was grateful that 3 from my care team responded after hours, including over the week end. They got me all squared away …. not to mention super drugged. I said I wouldn’t take narcotics unless its absolutely necessary. Well, it […]

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What is a mother’s love?

Now you know I have to write about this. I saw the question posed in an entry. As a matter of fact it was the entire entry. What is a mother’s love? My first reaction was to think I don’t know because I’ve not ever felt it but that’s not true. I do know what […]

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Letter: You’re no longer larger than life

Mom, Hi. My name is Faith. I used to be your daughter. I’m not really great with leading into things slowly so I’m going to jump right in here and get to the point. I’m trying to remember you as a person separate from an abuser. It feels important to me to have a better picture […]

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Wild Things

Redbubble is currently offering free standard shipping to United States for all orders over US$40.00. As of 9/24/17 this offer is still available. The inspiration for the painting came from watching a movie where a famous D.H. Lawrence quote was spoken. “I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A small bird will drop […]