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Out of prison, into the world

Content : Suicide, abuse, held captive Comments and likes are off. I have to remember the bigger picture. I can’t get distracted or tangled in the limbs of one tree and forget the forest. I’m going to scream. I’m going to drown. I’m going to fall. I want to say I’ll never ever become suicidal again but I […]

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Dolls and Grief

I recently started reading from a website called What’s Your Grief? I need a lot of the articles right now as I struggle with my brother and mother….. I hope every February and March from here on won’t hurt this much. In an article about Sentimentality & Holding Onto Items the writer talked about dolls […]

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Escape My Skin. Art. Suicide. Rage

Not everything has gone as planned. Things changed very quickly with accusations flying when I requested 30 pain pills to last 90 days. Let me start from the beginning. I saw Dr. Yes Wednesday evening. He wanted me to see a pain specialist. I said okay. I called the people Friday morning to talk about an […]

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Wash Away

 . Ink on paper. She was drawn in ink then streams of water were added. I scanned her before I changed her. There’s more color around her now. Jordan

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The two of us and the standard sympathies plan

Jane remains relatively healthy. She’s 15 but she still loves catnip and paper. She is so funny chasing imaginary things. Her favorite toy is a green fish that she got about 2 years ago. She’s got a decent amount of toys but I only leave a few out at a time to mix it up […]

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Therapy Review: Raw and Tearful

I keep hearing a little girl cry. It happens every single time I get extremely triggered. I know she’s not really there but I can’t help but go looking for her. It takes a lot to resist the urge to go looking for her. She can’t do it. She can’t call me by my name. The […]

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Seeing what’s in the distance

An owl’s sight is superior to humans because it can see past the nose on it’s face. It can scan an area and see from multiple angles, so why can’t we? Its ears are primed for ultimate hearing, hearing that will give it better perspective. Why can’t we listen to more than the old tapes […]

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The Jester has left the building

Growing up in a toxic household I found myself playing a role for which I never auditioned. We don’t get to choose which role we’ll play, we’re cast and then put on stage. It’s another realization of just how powerless we were as children and young adults. I made her laugh. I looked away when […]

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To the younger me

I read a few blog entries by a young woman just like me. I wanted to beam over to her, put my hands on both shoulders, look her in the eye and say, “Stop running. No more running. If you need to collapse and cry then do it. If it takes a week to cry […]

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First and Second Kings

This Kings Duo is available only on Redbubble. .       .    . Please find and click the Redbubble link on our sidebar. The original sketches are 6 x 9 on paper in black ink. Artwork by Robert I want to talk about my understanding of time. Basically I don’t have one. I […]