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Memory Plants

Thirteen years I walked past my therapist’s Christmas Cactus and never thought to ask for a start until now.  The three spider plant starts from the surgeon are growing like weeds. They were so tiny when I got them. I snagged a start from the hospital’s bed of pathos. It’s being rooted in the fish […]

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Strong Enough

Today is one of those days where I feel the weight of what happened in the hospital. I feel shocked, stunned, grieved. I can only describe it as a train wreck where I can still hear the sound of metal crumbling around me. What I feel today must be what I was feeling when I […]

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Black and White

Finding artwork created by alter personalities used to happen quite a bit. I thought it was strictly a thing of the past but I guess I was wrong. It would seem that I still find art I don’t know a thing about. I was quite shocked to see the piece called My Sister in the […]

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Therapy Review: Half of Us and All

In therapy we talked about the unfinished image “Both of Us”, drawn by Robert over a two day period. We spent a lot of time on it because it drew us into a discussion about being co-conscious and more integrated.  My emotions are more integrated and more identifiable. I showed him 4 drawings total. Three […]

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Girl Inside

Art by: Faith Magdalene Austin Art Title: Girl Inside Media: Watercolor and Acrylic on 98 lb paper Style: Raw, African Americana, Folk Art, Black Art Finish: Sealed, signed, Here’s a close up look at this very emotional piece of a girl with someone else inside. SUNDRIP – Art for Life www.sundrip.etsy.com

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Speaking Up.

Robert was going to allow the CNA from Zambia to return for a set period of time to see if we could overcome our fears, however, an opportunity to speak arose and we took it. I’m relieved to say that the woman who triggers us will not be returning. It was difficult to tell them […]

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Therapy Review: CNA. Butchery. DID.

Dr. D and I talked about the CNA that showed up today who was absolutely perfect. It went so well I had to call the supervisor to tell her so. That’s when I found out I don’t get to keep her but for one more visit. I hate that. The CNA and I also did […]

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The Unseen

“The Unseen” is a painting by my 12 year old alter named Michelle who has been out quite a bit lately. She’s doing therapy with Dr. D right now so there will surely be more art from her displayed on the blog. The art piece was started by layering paint then smearing ink until she […]

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Therapy Review: One Too Many Times

Content: Sexual abuse. Innocence of children. Violent speech. Anxiety insight. I vomited up details just to give them away because I don’t want them anymore. I’ve not gotten to say what I want to say, the way I want to say it. He doesn’t flinch when I add anger and resentment to my words. We […]

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Long Nights with Art

I just read the entry written by Ariel Michelle. I don’t remember it at all. I remember the art. I remember why it was drawn but I don’t remember, at all, writing that journal entry. I never did write exactly what Dr. D and I discussed in session because the only thing I wanted to […]