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Thoughts – Updated

My ears are ringing as though a thousand cicadas cling to my brain. The only other time cicadas were deafening was during the night in Tyler, Texas. I’m worried about how often my pain is out of control. I know this body is resistant to treatment. I hoped for longer with this treatment. updated:I hope […]

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The Man Who Reads Poetry

I used to follow a blog where the blogger read poetry to his readers. I can’t find that blog to save my life. Where are you? I wish more people would read their own poetry or works that touch them. Well, …. maybe I don’t want that. I’d follow a person half across the globe […]

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Weapons for Depression. Dolphin Sexual Assault.

I’m still struggling with the depression but I’m actively fighting it now. I’m emotional. I’m raw and my fuse can be very short. It gets old apologizing for it, but I will because when the problem is me, it’s me. I’m emotional, sometimes impulsive, opinionated and currently menopausal making me an even greater emotional mess. I feel […]

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Every Breath

Written 2/19/16 Right now I’m rather tired, it’s been a very long day. My uvula swelled, got long and began choking me. It’s funny, I had harsh thoughts about my mother’s COPD but today I was the one who could not breath. My throat and uvula swelled twice, and twice I was rather alarmed when […]

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Peaceful Memory Courtesy of Crumble Cult

I was on Crumble Cult for a good long time one day and had several belly laughs. It’s just good comics, but one in particular piece reminded me of the train set that belonged to my grandfather. The Crumble Cult creation by Tony Single is called Orange Blossom Special. It shows two lovers play fighting over […]

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How I Price My Art

I’d like to discuss how I come up with the prices for dolls, original acrylics, original oil paintings, large art, small art, etc. I had no clue what to charge when I first started offering art on Etsy or right here, however online guides have been helpful. One can google how much to charge when […]

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Beet Apple Ginger Juice….in a blender

I do blender juicing. …..save the arguments about how this isn’t true juicing…. Because I use a blender it means I need ice cubes or to use the puree setting with added water. I used extra water today. There are several recipes for beet juice, some with carrot and celery, some without. The recipe used […]

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From the Horses Mouth

When I went to see the doctor today I went with a plan of action. I decided to talk to his nurse, with whom I’m on good terms, and let her know exactly why I was there. I talked to her, let her give him whatever she retained, then I talked to him. I went […]

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Therapy Review: Shattered Windshield

Dr. D and I talked about how I have a general practitioner who kind of reminds me of my sister. He acts like he doesn’t even want to be in the room. The last time I saw him I was there about 5 min. When I came out Momma (Betty) stood up and said, “What’s […]

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Therapy Review – Dismissal Leads to Violence

Dream In the dream my sister, mother and I were leaving a hotel. I had Captain on a leash beside me but he broke free, ran to catch up with my sister then jumped on her back. He mounted her but didn’t penetrate. He did, however, leave a disgusting trail across her back. I remember […]