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Therapy Review : Baby Brother

Content: Suicide discussion. Grief I don’t know how to write this entry. I’ve been trying since yesterday to contain myself enough to take notes from therapy concerning all the suicide triggers of late. Perhaps first I should say I understand the desire to die and I understand what pushes a person to try because I’ve […]

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The Good Nurse 2

The nurse visited again to check my lungs which have shown improvement. She wants me to continue the excersizes to strengthen them. Of course there was an incident with the foot. I was soaking them but didn’t realize the water was too hot and burned myself. Oh my gosh! Oh the issues one has when […]

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Therapy Review: Woman

Content : Sexual abuse I feel like throwing up. I feel like rolling over in the fetal position to cry. This is the second time the CNA 2 talked to me about homosexuality. The first time I didn’t say much. Today she went into detail and told me I look like a “stud”. That is […]

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Therapy Review: Stability. Forgiveness. Gratitude.

It was a packed session. We started off talking about what took place in the hospital yesterday. I was given news that should have made me happy but I can’t seem to trust it. I’m still ‘stage four’ Lupus with issues associated with my kidneys and vascular system but the medications are working very well […]

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Therapy Review: CNA. Butchery. DID.

Dr. D and I talked about the CNA that showed up today who was absolutely perfect. It went so well I had to call the supervisor to tell her so. That’s when I found out I don’t get to keep her but for one more visit. I hate that. The CNA and I also did […]

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Therapy Review : Love Me

In my therapy session today we talked about the dream I had just before he called. In the dream I was 47 but in the 2nd grade. I sat as an adult in South Korea with second grade children in class. The teacher taught evolution but one student spoke up to the teacher and class […]

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DREAM : The Mouth of Lions

A man kept a house with several women tied up with chains. Some he broke so that they didn’t try to run. He kept a lion that he fed live humans. It was the largest beast I’d ever seen. I and another woman were caught as prey. We were in a container waiting to be […]

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Therapy Review: Hard Choices and Boundaries with Family

Dr. D and I discussed a situation with my sister that came up that required I stick to my boundaries, as hard as it is to do. Despite my mother having gainful employment, we spent a lot of time living in the car. I have slept with frost over me, slept on the wet street […]

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On Shingles and Angels

I didn’t have therapy today. I was in the hospital most of the day because of a complication with shingles. A friend of mine said, “What next?” I wanted to break her neck for saying it. I didn’t think I would get to talk to Dr. D before I went in which was terribly upsetting. […]

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Therapy review: What I need to hear

I read to him the entry I wrote about being angry with him. I then assured him I will not lie to him about feeling suicidal or depressed. I need to trust him and he needs to trust me. I cried from open to close of the session. It’s been a hard day physically and […]