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Therapy Review: Anger and Fear

Yup, still angry. Is that all I feel these days? I think in light of all I see and feel, anger is probably an appropriate response. Feeling this anger response may be justified in some ways but anger kills …….and I’m on borrowed air anyways. I walked out of therapy. I got my bag and […]

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Therapy Review – Reassurance. Normality. Lonely

Walk with Me 8:05 am I didn’t make it in to see Dr D because I wasn’t physically able to travel. I asked him if he’s getting frustrated or worried that things aren’t the way they were. For years I saw him twice a week in his office. I now make it in once or […]

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Therapy Review – Emotional Support. Siblings. Art.

12:45pm We had a packed therapy session with Morton in front most of the time. Current feelings Nervous. Lonely. Worried. Tired. 4:17pm I slept after therapy until 2:45pm. I’m pretty tired these days. In therapy we discussed the need to be emotionally supportive instead of abusing myself emotionally. I can support myself emotionally by being […]

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Therapy Review: Art. Lupus. Soccer.

One of the difficulties with me is that medications stop working after a bit. With the new treatment I had 3 or 4 days where the pain was a level 7 or sometimes a six. I call that a great day. I’m getting a day week at an eight which is manageable, it’s when I climb […]

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Therapy Review: Shattered Windshield

Dr. D and I talked about how I have a general practitioner who kind of reminds me of my sister. He acts like he doesn’t even want to be in the room. The last time I saw him I was there about 5 min. When I came out Momma (Betty) stood up and said, “What’s […]

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Therapy Review – Dismissal Leads to Violence

Dream In the dream my sister, mother and I were leaving a hotel. I had Captain on a leash beside me but he broke free, ran to catch up with my sister then jumped on her back. He mounted her but didn’t penetrate. He did, however, leave a disgusting trail across her back. I remember […]

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Therapy Review – No Single Emotion

my eyes are tired. my vision is poor. I’m intoxicated with anger. In today’s session, Dr D and I talked about how easily people file away labeled boxes stuffed full of the past. We do it without even thinking. Its boxed up, but the one word label can’t accurately describe just how complex life is […]

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I remember this woman with a twinkle in her eyes

I remember she was resigned to living but not dedicated to it. This Faith had a better attitude about her situation than I have. She was willing to look past the imperfections of others and willing to be wrong if it meant the other person had time to cool down. Though her body was failing […]