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Snoring. Dreaming of Flashbacks. Losing Mary Jane.

There’s something about having another living thing making noise that helps me feel less alone. Skip to 20 seconds for the start. His big performance is at 55 seconds. This is what Clyde does while doing his service dog duties of laying on my legs to help with the pain. He falls asleep and snores. […]

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Mother’s and Grey Elephants

I’ve thought a lot of my mother lately. In therapy Friday afternoon we talked about traveling, the orchestra, theater, opera and all the cultural things she loved. It’s a strange contrast between the tyrant and the artist but there was in fact a contrast, one I loved. I recall my mother singing around the house. […]

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Non-stop anxiety

According to my sketchbook, I’ve had unrelenting anxiety for a little over a month. It’s really getting to me. These two art pieces were worked on to help ease things. The piece cluster shows a checkered flag, a flag used to signify winning the race. I don’t feel like I’m winning this battle at all. […]

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The Right Companion Animal

Three weeks its been since I first inquired of this dog name Clyde. Several snags came up and I figured I wouldn’t get the dog, thought it had all fallen through. I said if I didn’t get him I’d concentrate instead on a six month vow to serve my community in a fuller way. Here’s […]

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Therapy Review: Actively seeking a loving mother

Content: Biological mother issues, emotional abuse, emotional walls, letting go Dr. D and I discussed grief over not having what he calls a healthy mother. I said I don’t grieve not having a healthy mother, I grieve not having my mother. I’ve been very clear over the years that what my heart sought most was […]

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The Unexpected Violin

It was to be a little girl in a red dress but it didn’t quite turn out that way. I realized early on that I am attached emotionally to this painting and that I wish to keep it for myself. Knowing I’m color sensitive, I changed the bright colors to those I can hang on […]

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Cheesy the Chubby Frog and Aquarium Therapy

A video for friends. At the end of the video I said these are my ‘frogs’ but only Cheesy the Chubby Frog stars in this short vid.

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Cats and Violins

When thinking about losing Jane, I don’t feel crippled by it. I feel bad about that because it’s almost like I should be out here falling apart, but I’m not. I feel bad that some reached out but she died anyway. I feel bad about that but I hope they realize they did make a […]

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Tea, Chat and Trust

There were only two of us but we had a nice time. We didn’t do anything formal, just tea and cake. One can make tea and cake sound stuffy if important facts are left out. I had the tea already and she brought Little Debbie’s. It was a nice visit though with some catching up […]

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A frog named Chandler and the cat that won my heart

I got the frog and brought it home. It already had a name before he even got here. The name is Chandler Pickle. As it turns out, Chandler is a girl but, who knew? The guy at Petco says I should change her name but honestly, it’s even funnier to say the frog’s name is […]