I'm only human The People Behind My Eyes Therapy Review

THERAPY REVIEW: Confidence. Being Heard. Suicide. Perimenopause.

Dr. D and I discussed the paragraph in my entry where I said I feel as though he drops the ball when the issue of suicide comes up. When I first went in to therapy I was nervous. I didn’t want to be there at all because I knew I was going to talk to […]

I'm only human The People Behind My Eyes

Guilt for suicidal feelings

I’m going to turn comments off for this entry I want to say I’m sorry for writing so much about feeling suicidal. I feel like I of all people should never feel this way, not after losing my brother to suicide, not after being so angry with my sister for feeling this way. I feel […]

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Depression. Suicide. Medication. Perimenopause.

The medical doctor suggested that Gabapentin withdrawal, not Lyrica is the culprit and that perimenopause is also playing a part in this emotional and medical crisis. She made some suggestions to improve the terrible mood swings such as Dong quai and Black cohosh. When asked why I didn’t lower the dose of Lyrica when it […]

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The Unexpected Violin

It was to be a little girl in a red dress but it didn’t quite turn out that way. I realized early on that I am attached emotionally to this painting and that I wish to keep it for myself. Knowing I’m color sensitive, I changed the bright colors to those I can hang on […]

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The Child’s Face. Depression Rising.

I told Dr. D I feel creatively constipated, and I do. I’m struggling with this painting. Her dress isn’t finished. It’ll eventually be a little girl in a red dress 

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Spinning. Saying My Peace.

Content: Suicide, strong emotion. This entry may not be considered politically correct. Comments and likes are off. I slept well and hoped to have a better day but my head is still spinning, this time with anger. As much as I don’t want to see things go in the direction, they’re going, I can’t do […]

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Out of prison, into the world

Content : Suicide, abuse, held captive Comments and likes are off. I have to remember the bigger picture. I can’t get distracted or tangled in the limbs of one tree and forget the forest. I’m going to scream. I’m going to drown. I’m going to fall. I want to say I’ll never ever become suicidal again but I […]