The People Behind My Eyes

My frog singing quietly

He’s usually very loud but today as I mist his tank he sang quietly. Here’s Chandler’s voice. Faith

I'm only human

History Repeats itself in the Russian Federation

I’ve learned something about the media while watching the Supreme Court in the Russian Federation. I’ve learned the importance of knowing your media sources and recognizing bias in individual journalists. When reading articles on several major media outlets I noticed huge misrepresentations and out right falsehoods reported about Jehovah’s Witnesses. I’ve seen half truths and ‘bated […]

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Therapy Review: Abuse. Sadism. Self Harm

The video is a quickly thrown together sound bite with several art pieces that fit the topic. Death of my brother as well as sexual abuse, suicidal ideation and self harm (cutting) are discussed along side art stills. Close to the end of the video one photo of a box of crayons is seen for several seconds, […]

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Fear of Water: Tipping the Scales

Each year I try to set a goal to work on life upgrades. I’ve set creative goals for 2017 (found on the sidebar) and I’ve set goals for therapy (on the side bar). One goal is to speak more kindly to myself; control my tendency for self-deprecation. I’m going to continue one of last years […]

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“I have a unique hobby of collecting life-threatening illness”

The short video about Scott Hamilton’s 3rd brain tumor is a very inspiring one . There’s one line in it that is so validating for me. First, I’m one who automatically thinks people aren’t going to believe that I could possibly have all this wrong with one body. Despite the open, raw blogging for years of […]

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DID Inside, a short film

Other than the fact that the character in the film killed someone, this is the closest visual I’ve seen of the disorder Dissociative Identity Disorder aka Multiple Personality Disorder. Several years ago I brought this in to my therapist to see. He felt also that it’s very, very close to the disorder. Look at how each […]

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Guess Whose’s Coming To Dinner 1

I’ve always said I’m not a risk taker but I can’t say that anymore. 1 ) I take strong pharmaceuticals and 2) I’m meeting my Aunty S for coffee come Wednesday. I’d considered it for awhile but wasn’t sure if I should say something. I got an immediate yes. Next week is a good week for […]

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Guess Whose Coming To Dinner 2

What am I looking for by taking this risk to get to know my aunt a little better? Redemption. Connection to a family member who has had the sobering truth of her mortality. A foot in the door with my sister. Redemption The messages and the names as an assault on my person are not […]

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Turquoise Emotions

I was cleaning my computer files and ran across a video which prompted me to create another. It’s short. I talk about my head not feeling right and that if my emotions have color then they’d be turquoise being pushed down by white. The turquoise would press down on red, tear at it, shred it. […]

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Artist’s Thoughts – This is me 2

As some know, this body of mine dictates if I will move or lie still. Due to a permanent nerve injury to my right arm, I can be limited in action, including holding a tea cup, a cane, paintbrush and pen. In addition, my eyes are growing dim. Strength in several areas of my upper […]