Today part of me just mourned the loss of the old CNA that I really liked, the one who said I’m not disabled. It was short lived. I’d rather go without the toxicity thank you very much!!! This head is tired. I spoke with the owner who reassured me that…
Category: Anxiety
Behind the Lines
I chose a name that’s not as harsh and doesn’t include the word freak because I’m not a freak. Here’s the finished piece. Yes, She wants to fade into the background because by nature she’s a private person, now she feels exposed by the caseworker. Even if some don’t get…
A little frustrated and it shows
I intended to keep the colors brighter like always, shockingly bright, but this time darker colors felt right. The rainbow was given a darker red and a mustard yellow stripe in a midnight blue sky. The clothing of the figures is in plum, dark red, green and blue. As I…
The Whole World is On Fire
This company, CICOA, that serves the elderly and disabled to find so called care companies to come in the house has now been told that I have DID. They, CICOA, told the doctor if I wanted care I’d have to give them both psychiatric and medical diagnosis. I was not…
Joe update
Joe Schmoe update. I stopped giving him this several days ago. Not going to say it was this, just saying I stopped giving it to him. I WANT to say he looks better. He’s out from under the bed more.He’s slow in the morning. He didn’t recognize me at one…
Delicate Leaves – African Violet Emotional Breakdown of 2024
Dr D asked how I was able to manage the trash three times? Honestly, it was mind bending hard. I went back three times because I felt like I’d failed or like I had something to prove. She said I threw it away to hurt her. I had to get…
The African Violet Emotional Breakdown of 2024
I’m not totally bashing this person because I know I’ve done what she did yesterday. Her aunt had a small box of plants for me to adopt bc she’s going into a nursing home. Most of the plants were in rough shape. When I saw the African Violet with dull…
Chatter – Rip The Heart Out
CONTENT – My cat Joe is dying. Friend always contradicts me. (Changing meds.) It’s been difficult watching Michael Joseph become weaker and weaker, sleep more and more. It’s tearing me up. I don’t know what to do with the anxiety sometimes. I’m working on several art projects. I’m successfully working…
The Deluge – Now in Etsy
The Deluge is complete and is in my Etsy shop. One of the things I point out about the balance. The woman standing has legs and feet that are wound around. Each foot meets a tiger lily, a child and a purple flower in full bloom. It is haunting in…
Rough Start. Grace to End.
When all else fails, buy flowers. My CNA and I like each other very much. She said she’s here to stay. I believe her. But today was rough. She’s got a personal crisis. Instead of continuing to argue, right in the middle of the situation I said, I call grace….