I woke around 9am but I didn’t get up until 1 pm. I just couldn’t get going. Yesterday was a full day in that we went to Michael’s craft store, Hobby Lobby and Lowes. I got a sunflower stash at Michael’s, all 4 of the large sunflowers total $10. Score!…
Tag: Lupus
Bad Things Happen to Good People
It’s sobering to think that no matter what we do or don’t do, bad things happen, sometimes in rapid succession. There’s an historic example of a man who lost loved ones, employees, finances and his health in no time flat. When I think about his life before disasters struck, I…
This Body and Mind on Vacation
There’s no one word to describe the trip. I’ll try to list a few: successful, physically painful all the way up to excruciating. I was joyful, energized. The trip was sobering with quite a few insightful moments. I laughed a lot. No tears at all. Driving down and back was…
How My Head Works. Worth the Fight.
I can’t believe I left the “T” out when sketching. LOL In my defense, I was in the hospital. I had to slide the “T” in as best I could. I’ve not heard back for my primary doctor to clarify if he wants me 100% non weight bearing now or…
Sobering Concerns. Uncertainty. Self Doubt
I was in the hospital worried for my new family and my friends who have been through the storm with me. How can I ask them to stick this out, again? I feel guilty about the news I got from test results. I wasn’t expecting it at all. A downloaded…
Highly Dissociative. Stand Still. ED.
I’m dissociating more than usual, losing time is a real problem. I’m so triggered by everything right now that I took a short break from homecare. They’ll return Monday with the same caliber individual that prompted this much needed break. There are things that need to be accomplished like arranging…
Art. Set Backs. Forward Bound.
I was able to add three paintings to my Etsy shop. I’ve got a fourth painting coming soon. I’ve been able to lean heavily on art to help with anxiety which continues to be very high. One reason for high anxiety is a health issue. I’m not going to attempt…
My Goals are Still in Sight
I’m still rolling. ๐ What an exciting few weeks. I went from mourning my old CNA to getting a new one with whom I am very well matched. Having her means I can let her do some things and leave other things to me. I can keep up with my…
Anxiety. Support. Long Haul.
I bought a second sketchbook that’s small and easy to take with me if / when I leave the house. It’s also easier to hold in bed. And for the first time in a good long time, I had to buy art supplies. I was able to get ahold of…
Life in Pictures – The Assignment
My abandonment issues have raged since the exit of the CNA I adored. She’s been gone for a week now. It’s affected my trust issues, paranoia and OCD issues. Going through the week with her knowing she would be gone in a few days was rather difficult. I can feel…