CONTENT – Child Abuse. Strong emotion. Therapy Review. The art work is not finished but will eventually be in my Etsy shop. If I believe I have a real future and a real hope, why do I keep wanting to go back and fix things? Why do I still feel…
Category: Abuse
Better Boundaries This Time Around
You know what? I did better with boundaries and setting limits than I first remembered. I originally looked back at the year with the old CNA and saw how many times I drew the line. The first thing was how she would shoo me away with the back of her…
Father. Art.
I keep sighing. My heart is heavy but I keep trying to lift it up. The fatigue is insane. I’m learning so much about how OCD affects my life and how it affected my mother and sister. I don’t know why I keep thinking about my father. I remember his…
Relentless Grief – A History of Madness
Content – Physical sbuse with some details. Sexual abuse. No details. I suddenly put 2 significant memories with the memory of the abuse of K. What does it all mean now? My mother used to giggle as she told us the story of our pet dog trying to bite her…
Relentless Grief
CONTENT – Suicide. Abuse with few specifics. High emotion and anger. Not a light entry. I stayed in bed three days with the lights out. I fed the animals and went back to bed. The world felt too big and too dark. Now I’m in the weeping side of grief….
A History of Eyes on Me
Content: Abuse. Being watched by abusers. Sadism. Publishing this art piece comes at an odd time seeing as how I just talked about store workers profiling and following me and my caregiver at the store. It’s also not concerning imaginary audience / fable but an all together different type of…
Artist Thoughts: The Color of Healing
I recently purchased a new dress for the first time in over 30 years. I’d been wanting a kaftan so I purchased a pink tie dye kaftan. That got the ball rolling and lead to dress number 2. When I was a child I didn’t wear much white because I…
Half a Century More
I started this little painting back in October of last year but I just now finished it. It looks so much better in person than the terrible photograph. This 7×10 watercolor piece has a lot of numbers on it. The numbers are ages that were very significant to me with…
Mental Illness and Demons
My neighbor has Schizophrenia. A different neighbor says it’s not a mental illness but that he has demons. She inaccurately applied Scripture, which I quickly corrected, but its still on my mind and still bothers me. She has no idea what comments like that do to a person with a…
Finishing Work
I’ve been finishing work in my books. I set a goal this year to finish work I started but there was an interruption that put me behind. I decided after I got out of the hospital to pick up where I left off with finishing work. Here is one of…