I chose a name that’s not as harsh and doesn’t include the word freak because I’m not a freak. Here’s the finished piece. Yes, She wants to fade into the background because by nature she’s a private person, now she feels exposed by the caseworker. Even if some don’t get…
Category: Paintings
A little frustrated and it shows
I intended to keep the colors brighter like always, shockingly bright, but this time darker colors felt right. The rainbow was given a darker red and a mustard yellow stripe in a midnight blue sky. The clothing of the figures is in plum, dark red, green and blue. As I…
Sometimes I Feel Like A Freak
This is about the stress and pressure from people telling me what I should be doing and me having a hard time finishing projects. Slowly but surely they are being completed, this one too very, very soon. – Sometimes I feel like a freak but I try to hide it….
The Deluge – Now in Etsy
The Deluge is complete and is in my Etsy shop. One of the things I point out about the balance. The woman standing has legs and feet that are wound around. Each foot meets a tiger lily, a child and a purple flower in full bloom. It is haunting in…
A double shot of usefulness
I’ve not shown off my Philodendron Hope plant in awhile. It’s growing out of two Betta tanks. I’m going to clip it back soon and allow certain leaves to mature. It’ll look nicer cut back. I have hope. There’s no doubt about the hope I have, but the path to…
Epiphany: A Future that is Mine
CONTENT – Child Abuse. Strong emotion. Therapy Review. The art work is not finished but will eventually be in my Etsy shop. If I believe I have a real future and a real hope, why do I keep wanting to go back and fix things? Why do I still feel…
OCD and Eating Disorders. Art.
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Eating Disorders occur together up to 40% of the time. My OCD and my eating disorder have gone untreated because there were other things that took first place like getting me emotionally stable so I could stay out of the psych ward, moving to stable housing,…
What Keeps Me Awake – Fear of letting go
My mind will catch up with me if I turn over and go to sleep. Grief will catch up with me if I allow my mind to slow down. I’m afraid of the images that are so vivid even with my eyes closed so I watch worthless TV shows and…
Father. Art.
I keep sighing. My heart is heavy but I keep trying to lift it up. The fatigue is insane. I’m learning so much about how OCD affects my life and how it affected my mother and sister. I don’t know why I keep thinking about my father. I remember his…
What Keeps Me Awake – Death and Dying
I have more trust that tomorrow will come than I did six years ago, still I live as if I’m breaths away from dying. I feel overwhelmed with the idea of dying which makes me wonder what will happen to all my plants I’ve worked so hard to nurture? Who…