Content : Brief suicide check in. Explaining myself, memories. Acceptance. Pain. So I walked into the building and my pain level rose to a nine out of ten. From the knee down on both sides it hurt like all get out. I told Dr D that I worry I eventually won’t be able to walk […]
Category: Self Portrait
In the hospital I felt guilty for putting my friends through worry for me. I felt bad that they worried for five long months, especially around surgeries. When things would get harry I felt horrible for putting people through tears and worry. In this art piece that expresses the guilt, I put hanging people on […]
About a year ago I took a vow of simplicity. I started before the health scare took place and am picking up where I left off. What is it? What’s the point? A vow of simplicity is one where you vow to live (for a time) a more simple existence which includes freeing up time […]
My physical wounds have healed faster than emotional wounds. There’s a real fear that time will pass, I’ll ‘look better’, and people will forget that on the inside I’m still struggling. When all this first happened and for the entire 5 months, friends leaped to my assistance. I had more visitors than I knew what […]
Monday was one of the hardest days I’ve had in a while. It started off with nightmares that stayed with me for much of the day. I tried to go back to bed to start over but had yet another nightmare. Then as planned, I got myself together, got on my horse (wheelchair) and left […]
I’m hesitant to publish work like this because of the dark lines and how packed it is, full of images, but it represents my head in an accurate way. It shows the full, always thinking, always moving, nearly manic thought processes inside my head. Why would I hesitate to post that type of truth in […]
I’ve been reading about staying positive which can be difficult for me. One of the things I’ve been trying to remember is that even with my health issues, I’ve not lost everything. I made a short list of things I’ve learned to do while in bed and while pacing at home. The reason I learned […]
They said if I wear this little patch it’ll help; it does. My Face My Art – The invisible illness becomes visible. It’s as clear as the art on my face. The three art pieces used in this addition of “My Face My Art” are: (drum roll please)
The problem I have with the old GP is that he never saw me. He walked in the room and typed on the computer. He didn’t look at me. He asked a few questions, typed some more, wrote on paper, handed it to me and left me sitting in the room alone wondering what on […]
Content : Suicide, abuse, held captive Comments and likes are off. I have to remember the bigger picture. I can’t get distracted or tangled in the limbs of one tree and forget the forest. I’m going to scream. I’m going to drown. I’m going to fall. I want to say I’ll never ever become suicidal again but I […]