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Therapy Review : Knowing Pain. Sorrow Dolls

Last week I made a statement in therapy that I had to reexamine. I said that all I know is pain. I’ve had Lupus since I was a child and I had my mother to deal with. Now I’ve got Lupus, other health issues and mental health issues, all very painful to live with. Maybe […]

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Therapy Review : Belonging

I told Dr D about my Nebula projector. He asked if I am feeling older and question my place in the universe. I certainly didn’t connect the two but he did. He mentioned that I turned 49 late August and that people in midlife begin to ask deeper questions about life and seek out stars […]

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Stars at Home

I purchased a star projector from Amazon that puts moving stars on my ceiling. Absolutely mesmerizing. I’m so loving this. Besides stars, something wonderful happened. I was laying in bed kind of lonely when the doorbell rang. I answered thinking it was Amazon. Instead of it being Amazon I was delivered flowers from friends. I […]

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Joe and Books

I finished Invisible Man a bit ago. It made me mad at the end. I’m happy I read it but it wasn’t, by far, an acceptable ending. It seemed to fall short of the power of the rest of the writing. Like I said, I’m happy I read it though. Right now I’m waiting for […]

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CNA Chronicles: Grave Visits

Since my last CNA quit I’ve had 3 new one’s here. There was one young girl that danced with me. I wrote about her last week but she wasn’t able to return because she got fired from the company. This meant I had to get someone rather quickly. Well, Sunday I didn’t have any care […]

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Precious Moments

Yesterday my CNA and I made cookies and danced. While in the kitchen stirring she did the foot dance moves while I did the top half dance moves from my wheelchair. Doing that for me was deeply touching. A CNA does more than cook and clean. She is often emotional support as well. Like health […]

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Therapy Review: CNAs. Anger. Touch. Pain.

I’ve been struggling emotionally since the GYN appointment. It was a bit much for me. Sleep has been rough and anxiety has been really high. I’m kind of struggling a bit. We talked about continuing deep breathing and lavender for anxiety relief. We also talked about the anxiety that comes with this CNA just up […]

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CNA Chronicles: Temper Tantrum

Part of me wants to laugh because of how absurd this is, but the other part of me is sad with a broken heart. My CNA quit this morning! She didn’t quit the company, she quit me because I sent a text saying that she needs to have transportation by the end of the month […]

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