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Chronic Pain Lupus The People Behind My Eyes

Another Thoughts List

I don’t have a single subject or a lengthy one, just fragmented thoughts. I need contact with the outside world. I don’t necessarily have to go outside often, but I need people to come here. I fear getting coronavirus and being completely isolated with it. I wouldn’t be able to have my CNAs if I […]

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Me and Face Masks

Me smiling. I laugh more than I smile. Recently I’ve had more to smile about. I feel as if I’ve gotten my second wind. I’ve got a lot more confidence concerning the world situation and feel safe and okay at home. The world is still big but doesn’t feel so big I can’t manage stress. […]

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Creative Writing PTSD

Mother

I see her face so clearly. Long, loose curls tossed behind her then bounce off her back. She’s gorgeous. She knows it. She likes her eyes best. She’s always doing a wide gaze and pose. It’s ridiculous. She pouts a tiny bit as her eyes beam with a message I don’t know how to read. […]

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Anxiety I'm only human The People Behind My Eyes

Thoughts and Worries List

The virus has sealed my CNA staying. She thought about switching jobs and getting out of the field but unemployment rates skyrocketed which has definitely changed her plans. I’m not upset about this. I want her to stay as long as possible. For Kingdom Hall Services we are using the Zoom program to meet together […]

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Fish Adoption

During this time people are encouraged to adopt animals and foster animals. Because of the virus they’re home right now which theoretically is great for fostering pets. One animal not thought about too much is fish in pet stores that don’t have the same turn over of sales because of the virus. Right now, even […]

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Anxiety I'm only human Lupus PTSD The People Behind My Eyes

Panic Mode

I go from sleepless nights to straight fatigue with an undercurrent of panic and impatience. I’ve vomited and stressed myself right into an outbreak all over my chest. I can’t get Benadryl until April 1st. Man. I’ve got a doctor’s appointment the 30th of this month. I wish I could cancel. I’ve got to calm […]

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Self distancing and art journal

Self distancing is not as “easy” as I thought it would be. The first few days there was loneliness and anxiety. I’m not sure if it’s anxiety all from the coronavirus or if it’s anxiety because the coronavirus is on the back of the shots and insurance saga without a single second to recharge. Frankly, […]

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Panic Attacks

I’m not sure what my problem is but I’ve been having panic attacks lately. Today’s panic attack included holding my chest, fast breathing and vomiting. I’m not sure what is causing it but it started over a week ago. I talked about it in therapy. I’m doing some deep breathing as well as keeping my […]

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On the Easel – Mary Spring

There’s snow on the ground but spring flowers on my easel. This is Mary Spring in her white dress in a meadow of beautiful flowers. This 11 x 14 inch collage is a work in progress created with four different art pieces and tissue paper. Coming soon to the Sundrip Etsy shop. www.Sundrip.etsy.com. Faith

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Lupus The People Behind My Eyes

Self Distancing – Coronavirus Precautions

I feel like I always do, a little under the weather and a lot in pain, and that’s how I plan to keep it. I am now self distancing from the general public. I need my CNAs so they can come, but no one else can enter and I’m not leaving. I don’t even have […]