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What If. Art Thoughts.

All ‘what if’ roads lead to nowhere. I got to thinking, what if I get this art table but I still don’t paint? Then of course my head took off, so I decided to sit in my wheelchair at the dinner table and paint a ‘what if’ road map. What if I struggle with the […]

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What if?

All “what if” roads lead to nowhere.  I decided to draw a little line drawing with my funky triple lead colored pencils to depict all those “what if” roads I’ve been going down. It’s not a great photo but the idea is there. It’s a drawing of roads going everywhere, fast. What if I die […]

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Risk. Be More

Dr. D and I discussed the possibility of me painting almost daily at set times. This would allow me to know ahead of time what to expect. I need set times for things as well as lists to feel more control over my environment and situation. Setting a specific time to paint and doing it […]

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Art Therapy Work

These pieces were worked on in the last two weeks. There’s been a lot of art lately but hardly any of it has hit the internet. I’m falling behind on it, however, today there are a few to show. They’re all four different from one another. Creating them was quite emotional, especially the last piece […]

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I Can Keep Going.

I Can Keep Going was drawn by Robert (19) with writing by Michelle (12). What stands out in this piece for me is the brick wall on the shoulders of the largest figure. We are feeling a lot of pressure right now. I like how Michelle processes things: This is how I feel. This is […]

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The Grumpy CNA

Content: Suicide. Blood. Emotional angst. Cruel Words was painted by several of us. What strikes me is how affected I was by the suicide of the CNA’s friend. In the drawing there are heads blown off the people in the trees. That’s a first for drawings and hopefully the last. I know the kids inside […]

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Mental Illness and Demons

My neighbor has Schizophrenia. A different neighbor says it’s not a mental illness but that he has demons. She inaccurately applied Scripture, which I quickly corrected, but its still on my mind and still bothers me. She has no idea what comments like that do to a person with a mental illness. Though I corrected […]

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Michelle. Anxiety. CNA Drama.

Content: Anxiety. No self harm. Fill in CNA’s friend committed suicide. Regular CNA troubles. The day has been mostly good but with a lot of anxiety. We seemed to manage it better though. There was an instance when we wanted to cut but Michelle said rather quietly, “May I have some lavender?” We promptly put […]

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Sketchbook Pages: Uprooted

I feel uprooted. Everything is different. My home is great but I’ve not laid down roots here. Most of my possessions are new because the old got thrown out. The only photo of my father that I had was thrown away accidentally. It is gone forever and it hurts. My dishes, terrariums, plants, shoes, bed, […]

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Strong Enough

Today is one of those days where I feel the weight of what happened in the hospital. I feel shocked, stunned, grieved. I can only describe it as a train wreck where I can still hear the sound of metal crumbling around me. What I feel today must be what I was feeling when I […]