I was able to add three paintings to my Etsy shop. I’ve got a fourth painting coming soon.

I’ve been able to lean heavily on art to help with anxiety which continues to be very high. One reason for high anxiety is a health issue. I’m not going to attempt to explain it in detail.

I went to the eye doctor. I had tests. I’ve got Pseudotumor Cerebri. I don’t know why. I’m not certain if it’s Lupus related or just something my body would have developed despite the Lupus. It kinda seems like I get all the odd issues associated with the autoimmune disease.

At this time it affects my eye sight to a disruptive degree. Headaches are no fun.

I’m very nervous about it and have to force myself to face it. It feels much better to hide my head under the covers and sleep as long as I can, so I can avoid the next few doctor appointments.

I saw my Oncologist / Hematologist who confirmed that this issue is separate from the events of 2018. He gave me a really big hug and said come back in 6 months. Looks like he’s going to keep me on the twice a year check up.

I’m still planning on going to Ohio at the end of June for 4 days. I’m staying in a hotel with a friend.

I’m uncertain how my dental surgery may affect the eye situation, or if it will at all.

Joe Schmoe has experienced separation anxiety while I’m away from home. I’m able to leave a little more often which he’s not used to me doing. He’s a little more clingy now, which I like. What I don’t like is the puddle he left by the door. If it becomes an issue I’ll take further steps to work with his anxiety. He’s such a talker. And he’s too adorable drinking from his water fountain.

The frogs are doing great.

Over all I’m ok. I’m anxious and concerned but I think I’m ok. I’ve still got spiritual and secular goals I’m working towards, two of which are art related. I’m going to give crochet another try. I’m also experimenting with canvas.

I’ve been a lot more willing to go outside my creative comfort zone recently. During the pandemic it felt like I was in prison in solidarity confinement. Now that it’s over I feel the need to spread my wings a little. I’m also more willing to use tools that I once looked down on as cheating. (smh) Seems my incorrect belief held me back a little bit.

I still need to try to simplify my home – again. This little efficiency is very symbolic for me. I think it helps me keep perspective. Moving to this tiny place reminds me that I’m not working with the same amount of stuff in life as before. There are major limitations but I can still move and grow within new boundaries. Yes, my little place began to strangle me during the pandemic but that’s behind us. I’m once again in love with my little home and eager to see what positive things life has in store for me here.


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