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Recovery and sleep

Still sleeping and recovering. Tuesday morning I went for treatment but here we are Thursday evening and I’m still exhausted. My pain levels are back to 7-8. My appetite is still gone. Clyde has been beside me the last few days which has been helpful. Despite sleeping so much, I get up by alarm 4x […]

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Pits in the field

Again, this is not a rough patch, it’s a field w pits and quicksand. It’s a field where pain is as common as flowers. I’ve had another small emergency doctor visit bc my pain has been too high for too long. Between Lupus, CRSD and shingles, my threshold was met quickly. When the pain stays […]

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Therapy Review: Hard Choices and Boundaries with Family

Dr. D and I discussed a situation with my sister that came up that required I stick to my boundaries, as hard as it is to do. Despite my mother having gainful employment, we spent a lot of time living in the car. I have slept with frost over me, slept on the wet street […]

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Emergency Self Soothing

This morning’s nightmares are the straw that could break the camels back as I struggle with the emotional side of health and pain levels. In order to keep walking the line I need to take a moment to breathe. I feel a bit angry. I woke up angry from dreams and memories that disgust me. […]

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#Metoo and You Should Too

After reading an entry about generations who didn’t understand that they had been victimized, I was reminded of an old poem. Though not my best writing, it describes the ‘good old days’ when people didn’t rock the boat, they just accepted their circumstances, their community guidelines and gender roles. And some didn’t realize they were […]

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Shingles: Decent news on Friday

There’s decent news to share in the way of an update I had this rash situation for 2 weeks, but w Lupus I didn’t panic because Lupus throws rashes at you all the time. I’d been putting my thieves oil on it but it did nothing for the pain. That’s why I went to the […]

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In a field of flowers

I would say I’ve hit a rough patch but this is no patch, this is a field. Now I have to figure out how I’m going to traverse this ground with its pits and stones. Today has been difficult but quiet, manageable. Anxiety is high, still, and my body hurts from head to toe. That’s […]

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On Shingles and Angels

I didn’t have therapy today. I was in the hospital most of the day because of a complication with shingles. A friend of mine said, “What next?” I wanted to break her neck for saying it. I didn’t think I would get to talk to Dr. D before I went in which was terribly upsetting. […]

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Big Brown Eyes

She’s just a little thing at 14 inches but she’s got big brown eyes full of hope and a sweet little smile. I let her eyes, smile and hair do all the talking for this doll. Her hair is really long and soft. Her lips are soft and pink and turned up just a little […]

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Cuppa. Sleep. Work. I’m Better.

A lot of tea sipping, a lot of sleep, that’s what’s been going on over here. Anxiety is very high as are my pain levels. I’ve got an open sore on my leg that hasn’t healed in three weeks times so I have to get more treatment for it. That doesn’t worry me though maybe […]