Today I realized I’m crazy. I’m not right. Plain and simple. No, I don’t kill people or stalk or have any of those types of craziness issues. It’s the craziness where I’m ok one day but the next I’m far gone.
I’m afraid of being left.
I’m argumentative then deeply remorseful 5 min later. The blast of anger comes out to friends and blindsided them. You can almost see the deer in the headlights look in their eyes.
I overflow with emotion sometimes to the point of exhausting myself.
I want to leave my friends alone because I don’t want to hurt them. I feel this shame inside like I can’t drag them through this anymore. How many times is I’m sorry enough?