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Apartment Possibilities and the Wheelchair

I’ve gotten a hold of all the paperwork I need to apply for the wheelchair accessible apartment! I have everything I need! Oh I can’t wait to have my own place again. Since this started I’ve had zero personal space either physically or environmentally. People touch and prod, observe and examine, when and where they […]

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Enduring the Days

The last few days have been torture. I hurt from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. The amputation site is having an electric storm of shock and neuropathy. It’s been a bad few days and I’ve done very little reaching out. I’ve just been waiting for medication time! The foot […]

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Not Cut and Dry

I asked you to do the surgery. You said you could or a colleague but I trusted my life in your hands. It felt like there was so much at stake, more to lose than body parts. I can’t explain how afraid I was that I’d throw a blood clot or bleed to death. I […]

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The Brave Face

I’m not brave. I’m not. I’m not rolling with the punches, I’m just getting punched. As I said, I’ve walked through the fire and I’m all burned up. I’m skinny, starving for a moment of real rest, of relief.

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The Surgeon Who Stole My Toes

I see “the surgeon” tomorrow, the one who amputated my toes. I wonder what kind of person it takes to look at a foot rotted black, take a saw and hack off a body part to be thrown away? What allows his mind to go there and his hands to follow? Though beyond repair, black […]

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Looking and Moving Forward

I have a few more art supplies coming from which will give my heart another reason to beat happily. I don’t look happy in the photo bc I’m not. I was at the beginning of whatever my body is doing right now. I’m hacking and spitting up, vomiting and utterly miserable feeling. That’s how […]

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A difficult start

12 painful stairs to a tiny room. Each step felt like I couldn’t cry any more than I did one step earlier. I made it up the stairs and laid on the air mattress with a slow leak and asked myself, “is it worth it?” can’t I just stop taking meds and let nature take […]

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Rise Bright watercolor and colored pencil. 8.5 x 5.5 inches 98lb paper This is what hope looks like. It’s hands raised and face to the sun. Flowers in full bloom and shoulders light. Faith Austin Sundrip