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Abandonment Trigger Reality. Resolution. Goals.

Yesterday when the CNA got nasty and then walked out of the house it struck me so deeply. I couldn’t help but cry and say enough! Forget letting them come back for three more days. I fired them right then and there. The young lady said that most blacks are ignorant and poor. My objection didn’t […]

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CNA Chronicles : When Caregivers Abuse

After 2 years of abuses, I fired my CNA company today which is a few days earlier than planned. It’s been a long rough road with them and I ended that abusive relationship today. I don’t have another company to replace them yet but Jehovah’s Witnesses are going to care for me until I get […]

Abuse Anxiety I'm only human PTSD The People Behind My Eyes

CNA Chronicles : Breaking Point

I got into an argument with the director of the nurse’s aide company because of the lack of care. There are too many days when I either don’t have care or I get a half day of care. I’m not going to go into the whole thing but I decided to pull the plug earlier […]

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Half a Century More

I started this little painting back in October of last year but I just now finished it. It looks so much better in person than the terrible photograph. This 7×10 watercolor piece has a lot of numbers on it. The numbers are ages that were very significant to me with age 47 being the last […]

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Paranoia Art

When I was young my mother used to tell me quite often that a person was trying to punish her for a perceived slight. She constantly accused my sister and myself of stealing money from her purse even though neither of us had done so. I didn’t realize then it was paranoia but now I […]

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Rain Showers. Pain Showers. High Anxiety.

Wow. It’s been raining all day. I mean raining like we’re going to need to gather 2 of each animal and hop in a boat. Of course my body is not pleased with the rain, but I have my handy heating pad that is 17×33 inches. I so love this thing. It’s better for me […]

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The African Elephant

I look just like her. I laugh like her and I hear her voice when I speak. Wow. I swore I’d never be anything like her, but here I am nearly 50 years old and I’m physically a miniature version of my mother. I’m ok with it because not everything about this woman I called […]