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Shingles: Decent news on Friday

There’s decent news to share in the way of an update I had this rash situation for 2 weeks, but w Lupus I didn’t panic because Lupus throws rashes at you all the time. I’d been putting my thieves oil on it but it did nothing for the pain. That’s why I went to the […]

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In a field of flowers

I would say I’ve hit a rough patch but this is no patch, this is a field. Now I have to figure out how I’m going to traverse this ground with its pits and stones. Today has been difficult but quiet, manageable. Anxiety is high, still, and my body hurts from head to toe. That’s […]

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On Shingles and Angels

I didn’t have therapy today. I was in the hospital most of the day because of a complication with shingles. A friend of mine said, “What next?” I wanted to break her neck for saying it. I didn’t think I would get to talk to Dr. D before I went in which was terribly upsetting. […]

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Cuppa. Sleep. Work. I’m Better.

A lot of tea sipping, a lot of sleep, that’s what’s been going on over here. Anxiety is very high as are my pain levels. I’ve got an open sore on my leg that hasn’t healed in three weeks times so I have to get more treatment for it. That doesn’t worry me though maybe […]

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Therapy review: What I need to hear

I read to him the entry I wrote about being angry with him. I then assured him I will not lie to him about feeling suicidal or depressed. I need to trust him and he needs to trust me. I cried from open to close of the session. It’s been a hard day physically and […]

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Depression is a liar

My hormonal depression drags me around like a mop head picking up dirty and left over grime. I can’t get off the floor. Depression is a liar. Depression tells me that people who care don’t love me at all. It tells me I hate them for letting me down when in fact they really haven’t. […]

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The girl unbroken

There’s a girl I used to know, a woman actually. We were best friends for over 16 years. I’ve had several dreams about her lately and have wanted to reach out to her, but I don’t. I won’t pick up the phone to call. I walked away from her because of the domestic violence situation […]

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Well, I’m trying to

Keep my head on track Not worry Not be angry I keep covering my face and rocking. I keep looking at the frogs in their tank. I’m happy I added another, they’re much more active with a third in there. He still doesn’t have a name. I painted some and worked with a new finish. […]

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Blackout

I stay up until the sun begins to come up. There’s a certain feeling of having escaped the night, to have out run it or beat it at its own game. Whether I’m awake or asleep, the night will try torture me. If there are shadows made by light, the shadows will try and break […]

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Lineage

This painting started as pull art. I created a painting using the drip art technique then looked at it if for a few days. As I was walking by I saw an eye. I quickly drew it in, then the lips and the nose. Days later the painting developed into an ancient woman growing her […]