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On Collecting Illnesses

I collect tea and porcelain dolls. My body collects illnesses. This is my second round of meds for the infection in my feet. At the beginning of the second round I had a side effect from the medication that caused a rash from my neck to my stomach, front and and back, arms and shoulders. […]

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Foot Stuff. Fear of Pain.

I’ve been going in to see the doctor more than normal because my body is having a hard time fighting the infection. The days I’ve not gone in she’s called. I’m also to keep a photo diary of the changes to the wound site, which I’ve been doing. The infected area changes in size almost […]

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Foot Stuff. Good Stuff.

Three times last week I saw the doctor about my right foot because of the infection. She took a small biopsy to see exactly what type of infection is giving me the blues. I should know Wednesday when I return to her office. I’m still handling it ok emotionally, I think. I hate, hate, hate […]

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A Snail’s Life

I’m in need of advice. I need a snail whisperer. If you are a person who knows about snails please leave a comment on the blog. The following is all the info I can think to provide. The basics. Here’s the thing, I’ve got 4 adult Helix Aspersa, larger than a US quarter and three […]

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Foot Infection. Humility.

Today I saw the doctor for the second time this week. She said, you seem really calm. I said, I know where this foot ulcer thing could easily go. I’m trying not to panic. I’m trying to do one day at a time without borrowing tomorrow’s troubles. The left foot (amputation site) is aggressively infected […]

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Art and Healing

I’m in a decent mood despite health issues. I’m still struggling with an infected foot that requires wound dressing changes daily. It’s kind of ugly at the moment as far as the foot goes. I’m still on antibiotics and steroid cream. Well, I’ve been able to paint and do some collage work in my art […]

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Risk. Be More

Dr. D and I discussed the possibility of me painting almost daily at set times. This would allow me to know ahead of time what to expect. I need set times for things as well as lists to feel more control over my environment and situation. Setting a specific time to paint and doing it […]

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A Year Ago Tomorrow

It feels like yesterday but tomorrow it’ll have been a year since the amputation. I was ok until it was time to be alone, then I fell apart. The two people I talked to commented that I’ve come very far in a year. They said there’s been loss but that I’ve made great strides. In […]

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No wet stuff!

Today could have been worse but it wasn’t. My water heater leaked all over the carpet. They had to give me a new one. It took about 5 hrs to complete the task. Now I’ve got a big fan on the carpet drying it. Nothing got destroyed but the day has been long and full […]