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Finally it happened to me

The dry spell is over! I painted up a storm today. I completed the painting The Young Violinist as well as worked on a few other pieces such as flower girls and another sisters painting. It felt good. Here’s the fun I had. The Young Violinist is in my Etsy shop at www.sundrip.etsy.com . Faith

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Therapy Review: Stability. Forgiveness. Gratitude.

It was a packed session. We started off talking about what took place in the hospital yesterday. I was given news that should have made me happy but I can’t seem to trust it. I’m still ‘stage four’ Lupus with issues associated with my kidneys and vascular system but the medications are working very well […]

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Gratitude and Gratitude Misses

September 1st I started a gratitude art journal. I wrote down a few things I’m grateful for then decorate the page. After reading through daily entries I see the thing that pleases me most is getting basic needs met like those today. My CNA showed up! I got a shower and a hot meal and […]

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Desperation and Depression

I feel a quiet desperation inside. I’ve had nightmare for the past few nights and have had a hard time waking up during the day. I’m exhausted. I don’t feel worthy of much. I sometimes hate myself enough to want to slice my arms to shreds. I have not and will not, but I recognize […]

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Therapy Review: CNA. Butchery. DID.

Dr. D and I talked about the CNA that showed up today who was absolutely perfect. It went so well I had to call the supervisor to tell her so. That’s when I found out I don’t get to keep her but for one more visit. I hate that. The CNA and I also did […]

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CNA and Self Confidence

The first CNA they sent me didn’t work out. I’m not sure what the company was thinking. Here’s the text sent to a friend who is still in the nursing home dealing with CNA’s, nurses and roommates from hell. “Oh Lord! My new CNA is 70 years old. I was like, what? Who sends a […]

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Art Flow

I can’t seem to get myself to truly paint. It’s as if I’m stopped up. All I seem capable of is painting shapes and simple figures or dripping paint down a page. I keep doing it though. These are all watercolor and ink on 8.5 x 5.5 paper. Filtered .

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Therapy Review : Love Me

In my therapy session today we talked about the dream I had just before he called. In the dream I was 47 but in the 2nd grade. I sat as an adult in South Korea with second grade children in class. The teacher taught evolution but one student spoke up to the teacher and class […]

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Sasquatch Rival

Do you know what it means when hair grows on your legs? It’s not just an inconvenience for Westernized women, it’s a sign of health. For years my legs had no hair because of the edema and other issues. Now, with less edema, with better circulation and healthier blood I actually have hair growing on […]

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Disquieted Soul

I can’t seem to get my head together. I’m physically and emotionally frayed. I’ve been trying my best all day to gather myself and settle my insides. I’m worried about my foot because it’s split in a T shape in one spot then open in two other spots. The surgery was May 7th but with […]